Lead me to the rock, Lead me to the Rock, Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
These lyrics are continuously going through my head this past week. As we travel these windy twisty roads and climb up to each individual house to share the name of Jesus. These are the words that have continuously been going through my mind and I know it’s because God is trying to tell me something.
As I reflect on these words and really look into what they mean, I am reminded of Psalm 61. A chapter in the Bible that is about an overwhelmed heart.
From the ends of the earth I will cry to you, when my heart is overwhelmed; Lead me to the rock that is higher than I – Psalm 61:2
When I look at this chapter I am reminded of October 2013 when I was diagnosed with a small soft bone tissue tumor in my right shoulder and a partially torn rotators cuff. Hearing this news terrified me. Fear of the unknown and the procedures to come. Fear had overcome me. As the doctor continued to explain the next steps in the process my mind continuously focused on the word malignant and what my life would look like if I was diagnosed with cancer. It was a very overwhelming time in my life, yet the Lord came through. He showed up even when I was not expecting Him to. I prayed but I didn’t really believe that he would heal me completely. I prayed but I had so much doubt. Even with all this doubt and disbelief I am blessed by a Heavenly Father that gives grace and loves me through all my doubt and failures. If we continue reading this psalm the next few verses say:
For You have been a shelter for me, A strong tower from the enemy. I will abide in Your tabernacle forever; I will trust in the shelter of Your wings -Psalm 61:3 & 4
He has been a shelter for me this whole time. He knew I would be healed even before I knew I had anything seriously wrong. He knew that I would need this verse to read during this time, so he gave the passage to my pastor to pass on to me. He used another person to confirm what He was trying to tell me. He shows up, no matter the circumstance. He is so trustworthy, and I need to rest in his arms always, even when I have doubts he will continuously show up and move mountains.
So, then why do these lyrics and these words keep playing in my head?
Because He is good and speaks to us in so many different ways. He reminds me of his goodness. He reminded me once through my co-leader Tammy. Last month she received a word from the Lord for me and when I opened that paper, I saw the verse Psalm 61, but more specifically Psalm 61:2.
From the ends of the earth I will cry to you, when my heart is overwhelmed; Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
How crazy is that? The same verse but 5 years a part at times I needed it. The Lord is reminding me to always look to him, He is going to lead me. He is my rock and my strong tower. When I am feeling weak, He is strong. When I am down, I can turn to Him. He is there through it all and He brings other people into my life to confirm that. I need His firm foundation as I start to close out this chapter in my life.
In this time of looking ahead to whats next and knowing that my normal is going to change once again. It is kind of a scary feeling! Moving around all the time, going on adventures, having deep conversations, Holy Spirit encounters and living amongst people that think the same way as I do is coming to an end in just 2.5 months. Re-integrating myself back into home life, while I have grown and experienced so much isn’t going to be easy, but I know it will be another time of growth. It is a little overwhelming, but if I keep leaning into the Father and trust that His plans are greater then mine and invite Him into this transition, I shouldn’t feel as overwhelmed. He is giving me this chapter and these words as a reminder to always turn to Him, for He is my rock.
So, Jesus, Lead me to the Rock that is higher than I. Let me not become so inwardly focused and let me keep my eyes fixed on you.
