Hey everyone!
It’s been a while since I wrote a blog, and I wanted to update you all on what the heck is going on in the life of a Squad C world racer at the moment.
Wednesday, the night of January 6th, my squad all sat together, packed and ready to leave early the next morning, waiting for each person’s hopefully negative COVID test to come back. Because the tests were so last minute, we were all super nervous. Everytime a test result would pop up, we would cheer, overwhelmed with excitement because the long-awaited hope of leaving the country was becoming a reality.
Until one of my squadmates test came back positive.
It was now midnight. The room was silent, as our mentor, Kate, came in to announce how we wouldn’t be quarantining at the AIM base for at least another week until we could get tested again and all test negative. Once again, our plans were postponed, pushed back, completely out of our control.
The past few days since the news has not been easy. I’ve had to work through so many things with God: seeking to understand why our plans were once again postponed, learning to be honest and raw with the Lord in my emotions, and trying to recognize the difference between truly being okay with something vs. numbing from the emotion and pain I may feel.
To be completely honest with you, I’m still unsure of what God is trying to teach us in and through this. I’m trying to seek understanding from Him, knowing that I may not ever get an explanation, but still turning to the Lord nonetheless.
One of the verses that has been speaking to me lately is Psalm 27:4.
“One thing I have asked of the Lord, that I will seek after: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to inquire in His temple.”
Even in all the uncertainty and pain my squad has been going through, my goal is to completely seek and dwell in the Lord through it all. I want to turn to Him with my sadness and grief to walk through it and grieve with Him because that’s what He wants.
I love you all and I’ll keep you updated as soon as my squad and I figure out when we’re headed to Guatemala! Thank you for your prayers and love!
Miss you guys!
Quincy
P.S. I have some friends still fundraising! If you feel led to pray for them or donate, here are their blog links! Thank youuuuuuu:)
