We have officially hit the halfway point. Which means we have been on this adventure more days than we have left. Which is an overwhelming, exciting and anxiety-filled thought all rolled into one.
It means many things. First, it means that home is getting closer and closer each day.
However, that also means that I have less time with these people, this adventure and this stretching, growing, safe environment.
It also means that I’m faced with the reality of what home looks like.
I’m going home to no job, no plans and no earthly idea where I’m going to live. This seemingly problematic situation has consumed most of my thoughts recently.
I’ve been going through the book of exodus for a few months now. (I highly recommend studying this book for anyone who hasn’t already!) And I can’t help but relate to the Israelites time and time again. Which is frustrating because they are what I would kindly refer to as dum dums…I truly mean that in the nicest way possible.
But seriously. They continue to doubt God’s holiness over and over again. Even when He rains down manna from the heavens. Even when he brings water out of a rock. Even when he LEADS THEM WITH A PILLAR OF FIRE…
I mean how could you possibly doubt His power when you’ve repeatedly seen it firsthand again and again?
But then conviction hit me.
That’s exactly what I’ve been doing. I’ve been doubting the power of God.
Our God is not just a god of the past. He is not just a god of the present. And He is not just a god of the future. He was and is and is to come.
That’s a powerful statement when you really let it sink in.
Thankfully we have a father who loves us so well that he goes before us to set out our paths. He prepares everything in advance. And that’s why it’s a privilege to sit and rest in what He has done, is doing and will do.
What’s an even crazier thought is that we have not even seen half of what He is capable of! We have so much to look forward to.
Because He is holy. And because He is holy, we can trust that He is good and what He does is good. He is the lover of my soul. He knows exactly what I need and when I need it.
So now I have the privilege to sit in His goodness and know that my future is in His hands. Which means that it will be perfect. He has provided for me time and time again. I don’t doubt that He walks alongside me currently. Therefore, I can trust that He already knows where I will go and that He will go with me.
