I LOVED TRAINING CAMP
God had many things planned out to do in my life during this time. A lot of things that I had bottled up over the years that I thought were out of my life were still there. The hurt still resonated throughout my heart and soul.
During the song “Take Courage” by Bethel Music in worship, I closed my eyes. I saw Jesus standing far away down a road waving and begging me to come to Him. I looked down and saw that I had a tight grip to chains that I was not even bound to. No matter how hard I tried in this vision to let go, I kept the hard grip on these chains.
Over the course of the 11 days I was at training camp, vulnerability was a big key. The leadership and speakers kept telling us to be vulnerable with our squad and teams, to open up and share those hurts and pains that keep us down. To completely DO life with someone else and let them help you through those issues, and let you see what true FREEDOM is like.
After I had that vision, I immediately walked out of worship and just cried my eyeballs out. I felt as if I had lied to myself all of these years that I was okay, that I had worked through all of my issues. I had one of the AIM staff follow me out only to talk through things with me and pray with me. She made sure to tell me that it is my choice whether I want to let go of those chains and walk in freedom or not. No one else could make that choice. When she left, I sat there in the dark and just prayed to God asking Him why I still had them. I felt Him just tell me to drop them and just walk. I almost felt like Peter. I saw Him in the distance, all I had to do was step out and walk towards Him. I made the choice right then and there to drop all of my issues, my pride, my hurt, and just run to Him.
I have never experienced so much freedom in my life until now. It took fighting spiritual warfare in my mind. It took wanting to give up. It took someone who has fought the same battle to speak wisdom into my life.
I look forward to this next year. To see what God now has in store with me since I have walked to Him and now see Him as my fortress. To help the ones that are in the same situation I was this past week. To see the deliverance right before me in their lives. I know that God has already gone to these countries, I know He has been speaking to the hearts of the ones we as a squad will be encountering. I take heart in that, that He will never leave us, nor abandon us. I will be INTENTIONAL in my conversations with the lost. I will be INTENTIONAL in my prayers with God. I will be INTENTIONAL in my daily walk with CHRIST.
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