Growth
           Physical
– You can grow according to the world.
I have grown a lot physically. I have spoken and given words in
front of hundreds of people. I have been leading a team for 5 months. I’ve had
to barter with foreign people. It’s a lot easier for me to communicate with people
and that’s something I used to struggle with.
            Spiritual
– You can grow according to the Spirit, to God.
I have now started to grow in this area. My relationship with my
Father has been changing drastically with every day. My eyes have started to
open to the crap around me, and what I’ve been pulled through.  I’ve
started to realize how weak I truly am with out my Father and how much He has
seriously fought for me, for His life that he gave me, for His glory.
 
The other day I probably
had the biggest revelation from God. It has literally blown my mind every
single day since I got it. I see Jesus completely different and I love it.
My God is a BA, period.
 
I had just got done
preaching the Gospel to a man, three women, and some children, all in front of
a bed of bait fish, which they were selling to the people passing by. After I
got done, Abusa(Pastor) Fedson spoke a few words and the man and another woman
rose her hand admitting that they want and need Jesus. We have done this many
times in the past two weeks. If you look at my teammate, Julian Sutton‘s, blog
you can read more about it, but basically we’ve seen atleast 200 raised hands;
as I prayed over this man though, I could feel something inside me smile. I
kept praying for his new life and what it would look like and all of a sudden I
prayed these words, more or less.
 
“Jesus Christ, the same way
you came into that temple, come into this man’s heart. Flip the tables in this
man’s heart.”
 
I thought inside my self,
“WHAT?! What was that and what does that look like? I really honestly didn’t
even think anything of it for the rest of the day. When ever we got done with
ministry though I went back, sat down with my Bible and read.
 
13Now the Passover of the Jews was at hand, and Jesus went up to
Jerusalem.
14And He found in the temple those who sold oxen and sheep and
doves, and the money changers doing business.
15When He had made a whip of cords, He drove them all out of the
temple, with the sheep and the oxen, and poured out the changers’ money and
overturned the tables.
16And He said to those who sold doves, “Take these things away! Do
not make My Father’s house a house of merchandise!”
17Then His disciples remembered that it was written, “Zeal for Your
house has eaten Me up.””
John 2
 
HOLY CRAP! My God is a BA,
period. Everyday I’ve realized more and more that we are evil, we are unholy,
we are imperfect, we are darkened. Christ has completely changed me, but I
always pictured it so much more beautiful, calm, and peaceful. Like me slowly
walking from the darkness into the light. That’s not how it goes. I don’t even
have the ability to walk on my own. Jesus came and darkness ran the other way.
 
My heart is a temple, God’s
temple. It was created for the Holy Spirit to live in. I was born into sin, a
son of disobedience and a child of wrath (Ephesians 2:2.3). I had
no  choice and I have no power of getting out of this crap! BUT,
 
13And you, being dead in your trespasses and the uncircumcision of
your flesh, He has made you alive together with Him, having forgiven you all
trespasses,
14having wiped out the handwriting of requirements against us,
which was contrary to us. And He has taken it out of the way, having nailed it
to the cross. 15Having disarmed principalities and powers, He made a public
spectacle of them, triumphing over them in it.
 
Colossians 2
 
I think to make a public
spectacle might be comparable to overturned tables and your money being poured
out.
 
When I broke down and said,
“I need You, Jesus” He came and He did not like what He saw. He was pissed off.
He came in with a whip of cords! I guarantee you whatever was in my heart
immediately started scattering for the exit. Jesus started flipping the tables
in my heart! Jesus, righteously pissed, stands at the door of my heart with a
whip and protects it. I did not walk into light from darkness but light walked
into me and darkness fled.
 
My God is a BA,
period.