Recently I have been wrestling with the idea of what does my heart truly desire. I have been questioning my own motivations in Christ being my ultimate motive or my ulterior motive. I have found that in certain areas of my life I just simply don't desire him, whereas in other areas I do desire him.
It is frustrating to find certain unrighteous desires in my life and yet I do not want them to be existant within me. Life would just be so much easier if my desires were always for Christ. I realize this, have a desire to change, and yet often I feel as if I do not know how to change.
I have been thinking about this more because I am evluating why God has me going on The World Race. I do not want my desires to be for my self by any means. I want my desires to be for the Lord and him alone.
How about you? Have you ever found that you had desires that were not focused on the Lord? What happened in your life that changed them to be focused on him?
