Dear You,
I believe that my life is my personal journal, and although I am allowed choice, letting the ink touch each page as I write my journey, the plans of my life are not for my hands to hold. For maybe I will hold them too harsh, or too loosely, only proving that my God will take care of my plans for me. Realizing this, I will forever continue to write upon every inch of this journey.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” -Jeremiah 29:11
Looking into the sea of eyes starring at me as I walked across my graduation stage, I was under the impression that I had made it. I am in control of my future. Quickly I learned that this was just the beginning of a waiting season that the Lord had planned long before my fingertips grasped my Sociology degree from Colorado College in Colorado Springs. I proudly stood beside my great God who had given me this journey of finding myself, while ultimately only searching to know Him more.
Humbling me, God has given me the opportunity to serve in his light as a nanny to His chosen family. Of course, I didn’t see it in this light when I started. “A nanny? That’s all you got Lord? There must’ve been a mistake along the way. I want to employ doing X Y and Z… and I’m a nanny?” I would repeatedly mumble under my breath.
I went from waiting, to searching, to waiting again. Opening my eyes, I went from waiting to leaning. To trusting.
My faith has grown leaps and bounds since graduation, May 22 2017. I have grown to know that the Lord that has crafted a heart of service for others in His light. I have grown to know that He has surrounded me with love through this waiting season. I have grown to know that He has planted a seed in my heart to be a servant of His kingdom on the World Race in January 2018, in the countries of Colombia, Ecuador, Peru, Spain, Bulgaria, Montenegro, Serbia, Malaysia, Thailand, Cambodia, and the Philippines!
I have grown to accept that I will not know how I am going to raise this money, and that I do not know what He has planned for me during this fundraising process. All I know is that He has plans of continued growth within our personal relationship, relationship with others, and my relationship with myself.
“Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” –Jeremiah 29: 12-13
I know that He has great plans for me through this fundraising process, and through the World Race, but now it is up to me. It is up to me to continue the pursuit of needing to see Him through prayer, listening, and whole-heartedly trusting in His timing throughout this new season I am privileged to walk with His light.
With love,
Pelemarie Buika
