After 15 hours of traveling on a bus with air conditioning that smelled like bad cheese, we made it to Debrief. For those of you who don’t know, debrief happens every two months. The whole squad comes together. We talk about our past months, what we are struggling with; how God has blessed us, and more than anything, fill us up with the Holy Spirit. Debrief is usually a really nice place. That’s what I have heard at least. We come here, and we are staying in a cabin, that is probably not up to code. The water is good, but it has so much sulfur in it, it smells like eggs. The bathrooms aren’t bathrooms. They are squatties. Holes in the ground. And you can NOT breathe when you walk in. There are three open showers in the middle of the bathroom. One of them doesn’t work. We get food. Moldavian food. We get beds. Bunk beds that move every time you move, because none of the legs are the same length. Also, I have no internet. As I am writing this, I know I will have to copy and paste it to my blog site later on. To be honest, it was not what I was expecting. So, what did I do? I turned to God. And of course, the dude answered me. He told me that these last two months, I have been beyond blessed. Too blessed, because I am now comfortable, when in the beginning He told me I was to never have a comfortable life. He told me today, Monday August 27, 2012, that I need to be stripped away of everything that I have, everything that I was, and everything that is holding me back. This is like training camp all over again. God is moving me. It is making me so uncomfortable, but I know He calls me to be uncomfortable.
I left worship early, because God told me to. It might sound weird, God telling me to leave early from worshiping Him. But He did. I listen, of course. So I left. He told me it was time to vent, time to cry, and time to let it all out, so I can be with Him. Even more. As I am typing this, worship is still going on. I am next to the window, and I hear them singing. Every song. I hear one person after another stand on the chair, and breaking every chain the enemy is holding on to. I hear the freedom in their voices. I am happy. I am jealous. I am frustrated. Why did He tell me to come into a room and blog, while everyone outside is declaring their freedom? He told me because it is not time for me, I cannot surrender right now, because He has something in store for me, His daughter. He talks, and I listen. This is my life.
So instead of having a quote of the day, I have a song of the day. I encourage you to listen to them. I spent over $30 the other day on some worship songs. (Sorry mom and dad! This can be good for you guys too! Download it to your iPhones as well!)
Will Reagan and the United Pursuit- Set a Fire
Jesus Culture- Break Every Chain
They are good. I promise. Don’t just listen to them. Worship YOUR God to them. Be in a quiet place with the Lord. Stand up and lift up your hands. Don’t hold back to what God is telling you to do. Yell it at the top of your lungs. I ask you to tell me your favorite worship songs, and I will listen to them as well.
Mom and dad- For Christmas, I would like some iTunes gift cards. Please. 🙂
PS- Christina Kenney and I made a video hour by hour on updates of us in the bus. When I get ahold of it, I will post it. It is quite hilarious.
