I’m The Me I Was Created To Be.

Picture: Month 11 in Spain.

 

Ten months ago, I was a person trying to be what everyone wanted me to be. The person who was accepted.

 

This journey has been hard and challenging in every way. And I know that the journey has just begun. I’ve been away from home for a little over 10 months now and I’m different than I was when I left. I’ll be heading home soon and it’s going to be different and it’s going to be hard. But it’s also going to be great because I get to share how the Lord has impacted me. But please give me grace if it takes me a little longer to share it all. A lot has happened in the 11 months that I will have been gone for. It’s a lot to process and the next steps aren’t set and stone yet. I don’t know exactly what the Lord has in store but I’m excited  to see. 

 

Through this journey I have found love. Not only did I find the love from our Heavenly Father and for our Heavenly Father but I also found love for the person He created in me. 

 

People can say what they want, judge me, hate me or love me. 

 

In the end the only opinion that matters is the Lords. And He says He loves me, chooses me and cherishes me. That He created me in His image and I have purpose. Each day I am already His chosen and each day I will continue to choose Him.

 

This month the Lord has taught me a lot of new things. The main thing I have learned is that my confidence and strength is in Him. That I need to lay down my pride and let go of what others may think. The Lord has taught me a lot about physical strength while walking the Camino. When I thought I couldn’t go any further He gave me strength to go the next 4 miles. But when I needed to rest to prevent injury He gave me strength to be ok with that. It’s not about proving anything to anyone but allowing the Lord to show you the important things through it. When I hit an emotional spiral He gave me emotional strength in teaching me how to handle it. He gave me all the positives of each situation that all led to further growth in my relationship with Him.  

 

This being said, I am still growing. I will always be growing and I’m excited to see the Lord shape me into the beautiful person He created in me. I long to grow in scripture and in more intimacy with the Father. Whatever steps I need to take to get there will be precious and well worth it. 

 

A word a friend gave me from the Lord was, “You are fully loved and fully known because you are fully you”. 

 

So as I return home soon, I want you to know who I am. 

 

I am a daughter of the most high. I am confident and I am strong in Him. I am loved because He loves me. And I am happy because I believe in the Father and who He is and who He created in me. 

 

I’m sure there will be times I will get discouraged and I will make mistakes but those are growing opportunities. I will do everything I can to live my life to be more like Jesus. And will look to the Lord in every situation. 

 

My life is now focused around my relationship with the Lord. It has strengthened my heart and has made me who I am. The joy I now have in my heart when thinking about His love for me is overwhelming. 

 

Be prepared, when the spirit hits me I will probably randomly start singing because I find so much joy in it. But no worries I still say listen a lot and sometimes I even catch my squad saying it. But most importantly, I will follow the Lord wherever He May take me. Near or far from home I will follow.