This blog is going to a little different from my other ones… A lot has happened in the past couple days and I wanted to inform y’all. (I will post another blog filling in the details from the previous week)
“Not my will, Lord. But your will be done.” (Luke 22:42) I used to have a big misconception about walking in the Lord’s will, and saying yes to him. I thought everything would be easy when I said yes to him…and boy was I wrong. Recently I have found that often these times will be tough, even when I’m in the will of God. Saying yes to him is hard because you’re saying no to something else. I was reminded this morning with my devo, in Mathew 4:18 – 22 Jesus extends a simple call to the fishermen “Come with me.” He was inviting them to leave their old life and follow him to pursue new life. Instead of saying no or listing reasons not to follow him, all the fishermen said yes to pursuing him and said no to there old life… and their lives were changed forever. This is something I have always wanted… having the confidence, faith and trust, knowing that the path he takes me on is the right one. But if I’m going to obey God, I must believe what he says. Hebrews 11:6 says, “And It is impossible to please God without faith. Anyone who wants to come to him must believe that God exists and that he rewards those who sincerely seek him.” The Lord loves us and has chosen the best path for our lives if we follow him. And I’m choosing to follow him.
In the time span from training camp and launch I spent a lot of time in prayer and meditation on how I should prepare for the race, whether that be physically, mentally, or spiritually. I got a lot out of this, and was able to prepare myself (as much as I could) for launch! But there was one thing I refused to do, and honestly didn’t think was that big of a deal. God told me that I should do this race without connections from home, and that I should immerse myself with what I’m doing and pursue him without distractions. For some reason I decided to ignore him and not do anything about it… Honestly, I was scared on what this would do for my relationships at home, and I didn’t think it was a big deal. So yeah… I ignored God thinking I knew what was better for me. Then a month later in South Africa, God brought up this issue and made it obvious that I need to drop my ego and follow him. It took a lot, and I had to sacrifice a lot, but I am doing it. Starting Monday I am dropping all communication from home (Instagram, Snapchat, Messages) for the rest of the race. I am super excited to see what comes out of this, but extremely nervous at the same time. I am thrilled to pursue my never ending journey with him, and I hope I learn a lot about my identity in Christ. I’m choosing him, and its one of the hardest things I’ve done. I would appreciate if yall could pray for me during this, for I know there will be times where I will struggle, BUT I have an amazing team here to keep me accountable. I also hope that for some of you this can encourage you to say yes to him and see where he takes you! Thanks for reading.
