Today as a squad we had a day of silence. We were given questions to help us reflect on the past 6 months and encouraged to journal out not only who God is and who we are in Christ, but how those truths are reflected by what we do in this world.
1. Who God is:
Creator, King, Ruler, Father, Pursuer, Giver of Life, Almighty, Everlasting, True Love, Jealous, Perfect, All-knowing, Just, Redeemer, Beautiful, My All-in-All, Giver of Grace. He is who He says He is and He does what He says He can do. His words are true and His promises are great.
2. Who I am in Christ:
saved, a child of God, a daughter of the most high, redeemed, forgiven, heir to the kingdom, loved, pursued, desired, FREE
3. How this affects/changes my interactions with the world:
I have a sense of urgency for the world. What am I waiting for? Injustice and darkness have encompassed so much, and yet I know truth and light. Why would I wait to share that? Why would I put it off? I want my interactions with the world to be more intentional, more bold. My fear is only of the Lord, and I desire to be obedient. Our world is broken and lost. The world is bigger than I thought and at the same time much smaller. Whether its a tourist in central London or an AIDS orphan in Cambodia– they all need to know they have a Father and are valued and loved. My desire is to interact with the world by the love of Christ. Being Jesus. Opening my eyes to the broken and lost, and having this overwhelming burden to show them the Kingdom of Christ.
As I have said in previous blogs, God has been showing me over and over again how much I have changed. I have been blessed through incredible ways and seen the provision of my Father and His intentionality behind it. But I have failed to see that He still desires to show me more. Today was a day for me to praise God in all that He has done over the past 6 months, but also to look into the next 5 months and know that He is going to be just as intentional, just as incredible, and provide even more than I could ever imagine.
This is a prayer from A.W. Tozer’s Pursuit of God that I have meditated on over the past few days and feel most accurately puts into words what I feel:
“O God, I have tasted Thy goodness, and it has both satisfied me and made me thirsty for more. I am painfully conscious of my need for further grace. I am ashamed of my lack of desire. O God, the Triune God, I want to want Thee; I long to be filled with longing; I thirst to be made more thirsty still. Show me thy glory, I pray Thee, that so I may know Thee indeed. Begin in mercy a new work of love within me. Say to my soul, “Rise up, my love, my fair one, and come away.” Then give me grace to rise and follow Thee up from this misty lowland where I have wandered so long. In Jesus’ name. Amen.”
