You can only carry so much. I mean this in the sense of the things that weigh us down physically, emotionally and spiritually. I now know why Jesus sent out the disciples with only the clothes on their backs and surrendered hearts.
Training Camp kicked my butt! I realized that in the past couple of months I’ve shoved a lot into my pack. I’m trying to take things that should be left behind. I may have gotten rid of most of my junk but there has been some replacement. There is nothing quite like the moment when the Lord shows you what needs to go. At training I spent some time unpacking and examining what I was holding onto. That was a painful process but then again I just can’t lug this burden around the world. Yet indeed I also count all things loss for the excellence of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them as rubbish, that I may gain Christ. Philippians 3:8
For many years I had one desire, I thought I had laid it down with my call to service on the mission field but little did I know that was when I would be tested like never before. At the time when so much would be at stake for every decision I would make, I took the bait of the forbidden fruit. It was then I realized I wasn’t where I thought I was in my walk with Jesus, and I will need to be stable on my feet for this mission! I am grateful to God for showing me my weaknesses and for His mercy to have sent Jesus to do what I could not do for myself so that I can walk in victory. I am proud to be in process because I am not afraid to get up again and keep trying. This is a life of faith and it will be this gift of Jesus that I bring to the nations.
“God frequently has to knock the bottom out of your experience as His saint to get you in direct contact with Himself.”- Oswald Chambers
For ten days I was in direct contact with the Lord. As I lay freezing night after night in tents, while eating scanty meals with meats I haven’t consumed in decades, during each icy water bucket bath, every time I put on that fifty pound pack and especially when I jogged with it to pass my fitness challenge, during each team building exercise and every session that ministered to the broken places still needing resolution. Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him. Job 13:15
Training Camp didn’t feel good, the flesh was being slayed as the comforts of our first world experience were stripped away and everything finally made its way onto the altar which was prepared for a sacrifice. Me. I surrender to this life of ministry. With that said I break the burden off of my heart and am filled again with His love, peace and joy! I feel so much lighter that I could take off in flight for my journey around the world right now, but I will still need some fundraising help, you know, for the purchasing of those flights…
This just in…The Lord always confirms and the message today in service was no exception! Enjoy. http://livestream.com/wbcgainesville/events/4472867
