Seen.
Heard.
Known.
Understood.
Pursued.
Valued.
Loved.
As human beings, I think we all innately desire to feel these things fully. I sure do. I’m learning that God is the only one who can satisfy our desire to feel fully seen, heard, known, understood, pursued, valued, and loved.
Sometimes I think the way God teaches me things is through feeling lack. Lately, I have been feeling unseen, unheard, unknown, misunderstood, and not pursued. As you can imagine, that doesn’t feel great. I crave to be known. I crave to be pursued. I began believing lies about my worth that I was not good or funny or interesting or valuable [enough] for people to pursue me as a friend.
But here’s the thing: We were not created to be FULLY known and understood and loved and pursued by people. As humans we were created to have relationship first with God and then with people. It’s pretty simple. God created us, therefore only he can know and love us fully. And he desires for us to know and love him. But somewhere along the lines, I think we messed up the order of things. I think we, or at least I, have put people’s opinions above God’s. The problem with that is that people are imperfect and God is perfect. So when we hold people to expectations that can only be met by God, people fail us.
So while I was reflecting on why I feel a lack of pursuit, the Holy Spirit revealed to me that it’s because I have been seeking to feel fully satisfied in people, not God. So I’m working on finding my satisfaction solely in God. I’m not perfect at this, sometimes I do fail. But when I fail, God still loves me. He still sees me. He still knows me. He still pursues me. And if you ask me, that’s better than anything people have to offer me.
