I don’t want to miss something that is right in front of because I am fixed on the wrong thing. I don’t want to let months go by and regret not doing what I feel called to do. I don’t want to be stuck in apathy. I want to dive into Gods promise with no doubt.
The Israelites where so lost and lost sight of the best thing that God had for them and they were still blessed. Just think how much more they would have been blessed if they fix there eyes on Jesus and welcomed the promise.
“All those people who didn’t seem interested in what God was doing actually embraced what God was doing as he straightened out their lives. And Israel, who seemed so interested in reading and talking about what God was doing, missed it. How could they miss it? Because instead of trusting God, they took over. They were absorbed in what they themselves were doing. They were so absorbed in their “God projects” that they didn’t notice God right in front of them, like a huge rock in the middle of the road. And so they stumbled into him and went sprawling.” Romans 9 MSG
This last month of being here in Ethiopia has probably been the hardest month of my life. I have never really experienced a ton of hard things in my life but all I know is that this hurts. I have felt such deep sadness that I didn’t think I could physically move or breathe it hurts so bad. I have just been gone too long. With these people too long. I missed one of my favorite days with my family and it hurts. The days are still covered in the joy of the Lord but its still so hard. God has taught me a lot in this time of hurt, he grown me and taught me so much about His strength.
If I just looked to the end of the race and being home all the time I would miss this time. This time is freaking hard but I would not want to pass by it at all. I have never walked in so much unknown and I love it. I love not having any idea of what to do that my only solution is running to Jesus. When I have no idea what to do next, God leads. I can no longer rely on myself for the next step but have to cling so closely to Jesus so He can move me.
This time hurts and is hard but it is so so good.
