Blogging is not my jam. I tried blogging once, when I studied abroad 2 years ago, and everyone who followed me knows that my posts were infrequent and stopped altogether about 3 months into my trip. I love reading other people’s blogs and admire those who can openly post their thoughts and feelings for all the cyber world to see. I am not that person. This is out of my comfort zone.
It’s interesting because those were the exact same thoughts that circulated around in my head six months ago when God first laid The Race on my heart. I felt unqualified and argued with God that this is not who I am. I am not the person who abandons everything for a year. I am not the person who carts all of their belongings around in a backpack. I am not the person who can humbly ask for help, especially with money. I am most certainly not a person qualified to minister to other people.
Yet here I am, two months away from my World Race launch- uncomfortable, excited, and ready to see God move.
God has a funny way of throwing us out of out comfort zones and showing us that we are so much more capable of the confines we put ourselves in. It’s not that we’re so amazing and capable of anything, it’s that God is. The last year of my life has been filled with many changes and situations beyond my realm of comfort. However, throughout this season I’ve had Christ by my side, navigating the waters, and leading me towards greater things than I ever imagined. I’m learning that his plan is far greater than my own. I’m learning that no matter how many times I use the phrase “I am not that person,” my heavenly father shows me that his confidence in me far surpasses the confidence I have (or lack) in myself.
So with that said, I’m finally writing the first of many blog posts about the next year and beautiful season of my life. My prayer for this blog is that I can use it to share the moments on the race that fill my heart and the moments that break it. I pray that I will be transparent and vulnerable, not because I want to be, but because God has showed me that I need to be in order to grow in this experience.
Despite the things I say that I am not, I can say with confidence that I am a follower of Christ.
That is the most important thing a person can be.
