Dear Perfection,
I am sorry to have to say this, it might not be the easiest thing for you to hear, but I no longer what to be called your friend. I know we go way back. You were close to me for a lot of my life, I strived to be like you for the longest time.
I have found that no matter how hard I try, not matter what I do I can never seem to please you. You always look down on me and make me feel like I will never measure up. I have been caught in this cycle of trying and failing. I am sick of it. I don’t want to be your friend anymore. I am writing this to say I have had enough.
I am also sorry to say this, but I wont miss you. In fact I am glad to see you go.
I no longer have to seek you out because I have found a new friend. His name is Jesus. He is my savior. I have found freedom in Him. I find that He doesn’t condemn me in my failings, but it is Him who holds me when I fail and whispers in my ear, “It is ok, I love you.” He then helps me get back on my feet again. I find that He is the one who walks with me during the hard times. In fact He is the one that carries me when my legs can no longer carry the weight.
You never walked with me. You left me to fend for myself, I had to be strong. I had to do it on my own. With my new friend, it is Him who does the fighting. He is strong for me.
I will never understand the amazing love that Jesus has for me. I will tell you one thing, He loved me so much that He choose death for me. I never have to worry about our friendship. His love is never ending. He is my best friend. I will never find anyone in the world like Him.
I guess all I have left to say is that I don’t need you. I need Jesus.
I am sorry for ever trying to be your friend,
Paige Jaquish
