Ever stopped and think, wow this is my life? I’ve been in seasons where that thought came from a place of hardship and struggle. A place where I felt as if there was no where else to go but further down.
In my current season, sweet season where one door closes and a bigger one opens, I sit in awe of where I’ve come from. Where I was a few years ago and where I am now.
I was the girl who’s Innocents was taking away from her through sexual abuse, who’s self esteem was cut down through words, who’s emotional and mental esteem was filled with fake joy and fake health. A girl who always compared herself to others, who never thought she would ever be good enough. A girl who on the outside looked like she was the most confident and stable person but on the inside was slowly dying. A girl who was helping everyone but not allowing anyone to get close enough to even see that there were issues.
Fast forward, this same girl is now on a plane heading to Cambodia, leading a team of college girls. This same girl who came back home to America seven months ago, went around the world for eleven months to share God’s love with various people groups. The same girl who still has doubts but walks in faith, same girl who has questions about her future but pray-fully walks into the unknown. The same girl who continues to heal from her brokenness and allows God to use her brokenness for His good.
See I don’t have it all together, I still have doubts, I still cry, I still have struggles, I still question some of God’s decisions, I’m far from perfect and not trying to be but what I know I am is loved. I am loved by the King of Kings, The only God, the creator of all things beautiful, that God. He’s my BESTFRIEND, we laugh together, cry together, I argue with Him, we go on dates, we sit together as I ask questions and listen for His answers, we live life together, He’s the first person I speak to and the last. He’s my rock, my hearts rhythm, He’s my EVERYTHING!
As I sit here on a plane heading to Cambodia, after three flights and two days of travel, I sit in awe of the one and only God, my BEST FRIEND who asked me a year ago to leave everything and join Him around the world so I did and its a decision regardless of the hardship that I will never regret or go back on. So here’s to more challenges, to more love, to more steps of faith, to more of the unknown and more promises being fulfilled.
Update
I am still fundraising and I would love for you to partner monthly with me. A partnership of $20, $50, $100 a month would be of great blessings.
One time donations are also a blessing.
My first deadline of $4000 is February 16. I would love if you would partner with me and help me reach my first deadline.
Thank you to everyone who have partnered with me so far. I wouldn’t be able to go without your open hearts and obedience to God through giving.
Love His Beloved
Oriolyne Lubin
