Those are the words that God spoke to me during our month 7 debrief in Nepal; Yes its month seven and we are in Asia, in Nepal, time is going by fast but God has done and continues to do soo much more than my human heart ever expected.
Romance: Noun; a quality or feeling of mystery, excitement, and remoteness from everyday life.
That’s what the creator of all heaven and earth, all the galaxies, known and unknown to mankind wants to do with me. Seriously let’s take a moment to think about that, God could be doing anything, but He is choosing us, He is choosing to love and romance us but there’s a catch. What is it? You must want it, you must give Him permission to romance you.
Let’s backtrack, as you know Cote D’Ivoire was HARD, I never thought in a million years that fighting for God would be so hard, I thought fighting for the creator, the King of Kings would be easy and even easier with Christians, can I tell you, I have never been more wrong in my thirty-one almost thirty two years on this earth. Having to stand up for the Holy Spirit and say no to everyone, the rules, the culture, the expectations and no to everything that makes sense was hard. My nature I am quiet and soft spoken but through nurture and life events and healing, I am bold, loud (at times) and a fighter (one of my favorite things to do spiritually) and I thought I was good at it until it was time to do it for God. I stood my ground and I let my team know the truth, even if they did not understand or thought I did not want to do what I was told to do, due to my lack of rule following. (that’s another blog, I like rules, I just love Gods covenant more). Off to Ghana, Ghana was good, ministry was amazing and FUN, people were loving and open, they opened their homes, churches and kitchens to us all.
There is where God started to open up areas that He tried to open in Cote D’Ivoire, He started to speak to me about love, future and the posture of my heart. He asked me what I wanted, not spiritually but in a practical living on earth want. I shared my need for fun and excitement and HE opened doors, people and opportunities for me to received and enjoy those things.
Nepal, debrief (debrief is a week, where our leaders come from the United States and we are all together as a squad and have worship, sessions, cast vision, have one on ones, eat, lots of eating and debriefing the previous months and all that happened and what God did). During one of the sessions, God asked me a few questions; What kind of life do I want? What kind of husband and marriage do I long for? He wanted to know the practical earthly desires not just spiritual desires. If I would to say I was taken off guard, that would be an understatement; me and God speak about everything, EVERYTHING but we have never gone into depth about my desires on such an interesting manner. As I sat there, trying to avoid answering Him, He followed up with, can we do something as a team? Of course, Lord, I am always down to partner with you in anything.
God: I want use to search your heart, together, hand in hand, step by step, search and walk through your heart and I want to Romance you in a way that is unknown to man, in a way that only the kingdom (heaven) understands. It is going to be beautiful and overwhelming to your flesh but satisfying, refreshing and filling to your spirit and soul. This is going to transform you in ways that only I know how to do, in ways that I have not even writing in the Bible or revealed to anyone that walked this earth. I want to romance you in such a way that when I send your husband, you will know it is him, you will not depend on him to fill your spiritual needs (only I can/should be doing that) and in a way that your marriage will cultivate such a beautiful love, the angels will cry out of pure joy, it will be the kind of love, writers try to capture in their books and movies but do not even get near to understanding it. It will be a love that earth will never understand and pray for. By allowing me to romance you the way that I need/want to romance you, you will be able to love and care for my children in a way that they could only imagine and pray for. So, will you let me romance you the way I am desiring too.
Let’s be real, who in their right mind would turn that down, not I, not this woman. So here I am in Nepal, sitting taking in one of the most amazing views my eyes have had the opportunity to take in and I am ready and waiting to be romance by the God, the only God who created the heavens and the earth.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
