Get over yourself…Lies from Satan (I actually laughed when he said this)
& Just like that God came in and pick me up into His hands and whisper to me, “I never left you”, and He brought me to the foot of the cross where Jesus felt alone, where He did not feel Gods presents, where He felt like His father had forsaken Him…God reminded me that the calling may be adventurous and seem amazing but just like Jesus there will be moments where it gets hard, moments where I will cry out to God asking what have you gotten me into, moments where I will want to go back or stop but
I will not, I will not go back, I will not stop because just like Jesus I will depend on Gods strength and finish the work I am called too.
When I started this journey, my main pray to God was PEACE, I prayed for a peace that is un-explainable and I did not pray that because that is what Christians pray, no, I prayed that pray because I knew I would be needing it. I have been fighting a battle between flesh and spirit, my flesh sees that I have not raised any funds this month and last month was not the best, my last fundraiser did not turn out the way I planned it and I do not have all the supplies that I need for training camp which is less than 20 days away (18 to be exact) so my flesh went into a mode of WHAT??!!! but y’all my spirit has been like a child in a field of flowers looking at the clouds, it is in such a peace that I don’t really know how to put it into words (but I will try).
Even when I was (and part of me still feels this way) feeling lonely and lost, I still felt peace, I still knew that this is what God called me too and I will go, I still knew that this was just part of the journey, I knew that I will get out of this (with Gods strength). I have this peace that I can only describe as a child that is skipping along and from time to time looks up to her parent for assurance and than continues along because even if I have NOOO idea why I am feeling lost or lonely, I know my heavenly Daddy called me to this and He has already taken care of EVERYTHING!!!!! like EVERYTHING no stone left un-turned EVERYTHING!!!!!!
So yes I will continue to have these days where I may not know how to fully express myself but know that with that I have the peace of the lamb that is protected by her heavenly Father.
UPDATES….UPDATES…..UPDATES…..UPDATES
I have the best Squad ever..Shout out to V-Squad (we pray together, scream together & laugh together). Bella (mobilizer) you the best, no really you are!!!
Training Camp is in 18 days!! like WHAT?? QUE???? –BE praying for all the squads and leadership.
I am 32.3% Funded! Thank you to everyone who has contributed in one way or another…
with that being said I need your help reaching my next goal, I need to raise $7,358
Adopt a box fundraiser….Pick a box or boxes & donate that amount box 20=$20, box 60=$60….my goal is to have ALL the boxes filled in (total of $4,771) before June 5th (that’s when I leave for training camp)
Yes that’s my amazing mom that’s holding my poster haha
STOP…..PRAY, I want you to pray and ask God, Lord how can I help, is it by praying, is it by donating, is it by helping with supplies, is it by giving fundraising ideas, it is by sharing this with the people I know, how to help and than do it!!
Thank you for all the support and Love, it is notice and greatly appreciated!!!
His daughter,
Oriolyne Ruchama
