In the last week or so, I’ve been re-reading the gospels. I’ve become hungry to see, know and learn the life of Jesus and his ministry. I’ve prayed radical prayers to become more and more like him. It’s been a hard journey following the World Race, I kept flip-flopping about going and not going. My work over the summer caused an injury that I thought was gonna stop me from going, which may still, cause I am laid up in bed. I felt like nestling down in Northern California and creating a “home” for me was a good idea. A home with a dog, a car, and a fantastic job. I didn’t want to go 11 months out of my comfort zone, I didn’t want to live out of a backpack and I didn’t want to deal with all the vaccines that needed to be done. that’s A LOT OF NEEDLES!
About five minutes before my phone call, where I was going to tell my advisor that I wanted to resign, I asked the Lord, ‘Is this something you really want me to do?’ I laid it all out – did I want to go and share the gospel to indigenous natives? Or settle down in America and make a home for me? The only answer I got was ‘Wait’. If all the money came in September for the deadline, then I am meant to go, if it doesn’t I’m meant to create a home!
A lot of my options that were hindering me were all coming out of fear. I honestly am afraid, 11 months on the field sharing the gospel to people who never heard the gospel? It’s terrifying, yet also exciting because people get to meet Jesus and touched by his love. I want to see the Jesus that the gospel describes. A Jesus who is present in the moment, loves, heals and sets free. A Jesus who causes chaos, but also creates peace among it and reminds people of their true identity as children. I want to see tables flipped, the lame walk, lepers healed, eyes opened, coins found in fish, storms calming down, people walking on water, demons fleeing to pigs, bread and loaves multiplying and Martha being reminded to rest and listen like Mary.
Of course, none of it is gonna happen in the exact same way the gospel describes, but the spirit that lived in Jesus as he did his ministry still lives today. I believe that wholeheartedly! I know that healing still happens, I know that demons still flee at the name of Jesus, I know storms are still being calmed, I know that food is still being multiplied, I know that the Spirit still works in this day and age. Whatever that looks like, fear aside, it‘s
what I am hungry to see in my life.
It all boils down to whether fear is holding me back… Pssh, of course it was and there are moments where I want my dream house with my dream dog, my dreamy, scrumptious, husband, and my freaking dream Tesla car. But, would I switch living comfortably to living uncomfortably and seeing the Jesus I so long to see? Of course. But, will I flip-flop between the two options, yep. Because in both these ideas, the same Jesus in the gospel can show up in both scenarios. He is omnipresent and can show up in my living room while praying as much in my tent in the middle of nowhere in Bolivia.
Which comes to the part of what the Lord told me, wait till September to see what happens and make a decision then. By September 26, I will need to have $5,000 raised. That’s where you come in, yes you reading this. Whether you‘re my mom, (hi mom) 1 out of my 12 siblings, 2 out of my 41 nieces and nephews (because there really is only two on their own right now), a close dear friend, a long lost friend who I haven’t talked to since high school or just a perfect stranger that is randomly on my facebook and taking a look at this, thank you!
I need a team, a team of people to partner with me in what the Lord is wanting to do in my life. I need a team of people to pray.with.me. PPPLLEEEEAAASE!!! A team who would like to see everything that the Lord is going to do through this superwoman. A team who wants to be invested financially in my tickets to see if a lion would like to try and eat me in the middle of Kenya. A team who wants an update from a little hut in Kenya with lions trying to eat me. A team who would pray that the lions wouldn’t eat me. You are the most important part of this role! If you decide not to be a part of this journey, honestly, that brings me one step closer to my dream house, so you’re still doing something. There’s no getting out of this.
But, on a serious note, away from the lion eating… if you want to see the gospel get spread, if you want to see Jesus touch people up in the mountains of Chile, or touch the gypsies in Greece, let me know and I will point you in the right direction. I need a team of prayer warriors to pray with me, invest in me, and partner with me with updates! You are reading this for a reason, not just because you saw this on my page. Which by the way, you made it all the way to the bottom, congrats. See, you really are reading this for a reason, because only a very invested human in my life would be reading this. 😉
Here soon I will be posting different ways you can invest. I’ll be selling Tshirts, bracelets, and other such things. But if you just want to give, you can look at the top of the page and see a very beautiful button that says “donate” it will direct you in the right direction. Also, please contact me if you want to be a part of my prayer team and subscribe to this blog which is another beautiful button at the top left corner, underneath my picture in case you didn’t see it. Who knows, the lions in Kenya may win, maybe Mufasa rose from the dead.
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