The quietness of life here has been a challenge for me.
I’m used to a much louder…..GO-GO-GO kinda life style.
Even though we are busy here with VBS, visiting peoples homes, teaching english, and painting churches….the general state of things doing life here is quiet and slow.
I feel myself tapping my toes more often then not.
I ALWAYS have something to do at home.
Whatever it is….grabbing a drink at Starbucks,
walking around a bookstore, going to stable to ride,
going running on the beach,
watching movies with my dad,
doing lunch with friends…exc, exc.
No matter how much I love it here….literally living in about a one mile radius causes me to sometimes feel trapped.
Quieting my soul, my lifestyle, and my mind was and is something I have asked the LORD to work on in me.
So I am glad for this season, and it IS an answer to prayer….
I ‘m just not handling it as well as I thought.
In reality, I’m okay with that.
My failures and inabilities only cause me to sink deeper
into my Abba’s lap and and rely on Him in deeper and deeper ways.
To delight in Him despite how I feel in my present circumstance.
To praise Him for what that day holds.
Because each time I awake…
THAT is the day that the LORD has seen fit to set before me.
These are the circumstances that our sovereign God has chosen.
And so I will call them good.
“Jesus I am resting,
Resting in the joy of what Thou art;
I am finding out the greatness,
of thy loving heart”
