One day while talking to my dad about the crazy things kids do he revealed to me that
around the age of 2 or 3 I had a “stealing problem”! Though I vaguely
remember picking up a hot pink feather duster while visiting the local
hardware store with my mother, and not putting that feather duster down
until it was safely in my room, I was shocked! He went on to tell me
that my mother noticed my “problem” and one day asked a security guard
to pretend he was going to take me to jail if I didn’t stop taking things
that did not belong to me. Still laughing at this story that I have no
recollection of I thought about it to myself…”Yeah, that is something
my mother would do.”
I don’t often look backwards being too preoccupied with
the amazing present and all the possibilities of the mysterious future,
but in this moment I allowed myself some time to remember my mother,
that woman who loved me enough to make sure I was “scared straight” at
2years old. lol
the amazing present and all the possibilities of the mysterious future,
but in this moment I allowed myself some time to remember my mother,
that woman who loved me enough to make sure I was “scared straight” at
2years old. lol
I have missed my mother so much since she lost
the fight to cancer in 2004 when I was just 19. But as wonderful as she
was when I think back to growing up, my family and our lives together
before any of us knew Christ, I remember so much pain and anger. We all
loved each other but we were a people divided all cooped up under one
roof like several simmering pots on a stove with little space.
the fight to cancer in 2004 when I was just 19. But as wonderful as she
was when I think back to growing up, my family and our lives together
before any of us knew Christ, I remember so much pain and anger. We all
loved each other but we were a people divided all cooped up under one
roof like several simmering pots on a stove with little space.
I had forgotten how life was back then. It has
only been about 3 years since I have known Christ and I had forgotten
how much I had suffered with depression, anxiety, anger and self hatred. Some of my very first prayers to the Lord were requests for Christian friends my age, (I had none), A home for when I moved back to
Boston, an enjoyable job, and to know Him more. Though I have my
moments of frustration and remembrance of a not so happy childhood, the
last two years have been so enjoyable, so full of exceedingly and
abundantly answered prayers, so peaceful and full of His grace that I
had forgotten my old life and how truly, truly destitute it was.
only been about 3 years since I have known Christ and I had forgotten
how much I had suffered with depression, anxiety, anger and self hatred. Some of my very first prayers to the Lord were requests for Christian friends my age, (I had none), A home for when I moved back to
Boston, an enjoyable job, and to know Him more. Though I have my
moments of frustration and remembrance of a not so happy childhood, the
last two years have been so enjoyable, so full of exceedingly and
abundantly answered prayers, so peaceful and full of His grace that I
had forgotten my old life and how truly, truly destitute it was.
This is what I hope to bring. I hope that long after we leave the 11 countries we will visit,
people speckled across this earth will have a moment in which they
realize that as a new creation in Christ knowing Gods Victorious Grace,
they had forgotten the life that they were grafted out of because of the
new “life and life more abundantly” that they have been grafted into and are now knowing the fullness of.
people speckled across this earth will have a moment in which they
realize that as a new creation in Christ knowing Gods Victorious Grace,
they had forgotten the life that they were grafted out of because of the
new “life and life more abundantly” that they have been grafted into and are now knowing the fullness of.
I cannot explain how much I love my job, or my beautiful
house or the utterly amazing Christian friends that God handpicked for
me to learn from and grow with, but hopefully when out and about in the world I’ll be able to explain
the source of all my joys. That loving man Jesus Christ.
house or the utterly amazing Christian friends that God handpicked for
me to learn from and grow with, but hopefully when out and about in the world I’ll be able to explain
the source of all my joys. That loving man Jesus Christ.
