“You’ve been alone for so long, but it’s time for….”
These were words from the Lord in Guatemala. Before this, had always been so closed off in the past. I never really let anyone in. I wouldn’t allow other people to see the gritty details of my own thoughts and struggles. No one knew the things that hurt me, or the things that had. I didn’t even know far that pushed me from others.
Now i see that It was all about trust. I needed to look at others and know that they weren’t there to hurt me. I needed to trust them, and trust God. Because-
“For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.”
Ephesians 6:12 NIV
The thing is, no crack in my armor showed. I would hide up every weakness, so that others couldn’t attack them. I really just ended up with internal bleeding. I mean how foolish for me to cover up a crack in my armor. Who can protect me when my guard is down? Nobody, because nobody knows a weakness is there.
I really just needed to trust my friends, and family. I needed to trust that they were there to defend my weakness with me, and be tender with my wounds. If I would have trusted them, they could have helped me fix and repair a lot of those spots.
People often forget that we are all on the same team. I sure forgot, and it took me far too long to realize. I really isolated myself. It never helped me to hide my problems from others.
