WOW! Cant believe its been almost two weeks since i’ve been home. I remember signing up for this whole trip 1 1/2 years ago. Its funny how God works. I heard about this trip through a guy named Sam who worked at American Eagle. My mom started asking him about his bracelets. I was so far from God and the idea of a missions trip at the time sounded so horrible and so unfathomable for me. I remember he gave me his information if I ever wanted to pursue the program. I brushed it off and was polite but really not interested. As his number sat in my jean pockets I could not stop thinking about it. I even told God “Why me? I have not been close with you nor do I want to have a relationship.” I finally picked up the phone and gave him a call because I was sick of having that draw to it. He showed me videos from his trip and the whole thing. I mean it sounded wicked cool but I was still on the fence about the whole thing. In my mind I did not feel close enough to God to go on this trip. But then God spoke to me again spitting wisdom at me saying, “How do you think your gonna get closer to me? By living a empty life? Or doing my work?” Big wake up call for sure. Then before I knew it I had already done 2 fundraisers and was well on my way. Once I made it on the field I knew it’s where I was supposed to be. Even then the devil snuck his way into my head. Saying ” you will never raise the funds? How are going to raise 4,000 dollars?” I prayed about it. Told God to help me. Even if I was supposed to be there. Knowing I really did feel called but was my time supposed to be short or not? I kid you not that same night I received a 4,750$ donation. I mean right on the dot of what I needed. He has your best interests even if you don’t know or think they are. Crazy. This was hands down the best decision I have ever made in my life. Scary to think where I would be right now without god. The biggest thing the world race sets you up for is your solid restoration and God helping you see his plan for your life and how much more that will prosper compared to your own. I mean shoot his plan was for me to spend 9 months abroad compared to continue to party and live a very empty life. He’s mapped out my future made me see my true love for music and how big his plans are for that area of my life. My head has never been screwed on tighter and God has never felt so alive.
I also would have never met Meskuremmmm.
This cutie right here reminds me of Gracie like crazy. Gracie is one of the ways God ultimately lead me here and i finally realized it. At her memorial all they really had to say about Gracie is how great here insight was. She was only 9. But wow she really understood the true nature of what people need. If they did not have friends BOOM you had one with Gracie. No one to sit at with lunch BOOM Gracie. A completely unique kid with a heart to SERVE. When I heard all this I found myself not at peace. Thinking about Gracie made me realize the Good ones do go young. Because they get it. This thing that takes the rest of us all our life’s to figure out and most of us don’t ever even get it. That woke me up. Thats the urge I felt when I could not get Sam’s number out of my head. In the back of my mind I kept thinking would Gracie do this. I feel a part of her with me. God impacted me with the light he shed through her to a point its electrifying. If I would have never taken that chance Meskuremm and me would have never met and I would not have gotten a chance to see Gods beautiful vision. I would like to thank my supporters for every penny. Whoever donated that 4,750 you saved my life more then you know. I was in such a bad spot before the trip now I feel like I’m a true soldier of God. With that note I’m Logging off THANK YOU EVERYONE!!!!!!
