What do I choose first? What do I want? What do I need? Who and What does God want me to be/look in the future? Who am I?…
First, I know that I am the Son of the Most High King. MY God died on the Cross for MY sins and God knows I have a bunch of sins; who doesn’t? And I also know that God has my life already planned out, God already knows my future, and what it holds. Why, then, do I have all these questions? It’s because of fear, it’s because I have expectation, and it may be the plan that God has for me may make some people unhappy. I’m sitting here its 2:39 in the morning writing this blog, I can’t fall asleep even after taking two Benadryl! I’m listing to the song “No Longer Slaves.” In this song its saying that “I’m no longer a slave to fear, I am a child of God.” I am surrounded by the arms of the Father.” What!!? That’s awesome!! God says to leave everything behind you and take up your cross and follow me…
“God I want to follow you, but God I need to go to college..”
“Nik, I said to follow me..”
“But God, my family’s not going to like it.”
“Nik, If you want to follow me, you may have to leave your family behind.”
“But God, I love my family.”
“It is said that you need to love me more than you love your family if you want to follow me.”
“But, God…”
“But God, what? Do you want to follow me or not?”
“Yes, Father. I do want to follow you.”
“Then take up your cross and be my disciple, Nik. I love you!”
Many times in life, we ask God for guidance and direction. We may say a simple prayer, and then get up and go on with our life. We tend to do that process over and over again; say a prayer for guidance and direction, and then proceed with our lives. God is going to tell us or show us what he wants to do with us, but we don’t listen; we ask for help but we don’t listen. Why is that? Why don’t we listen? One reason could be because were scared of what God’s going to tell us. At baptism, we devoted our lives to God, and promise to whatever he wants us to do. God doesn’t call us all to missions. God could be calling one to work at a zoo. He could be calling another to go to college and become a teacher, doctor or whatever, but I want to challenge everyone to listen to God when they ask him for direction.
What’s all this look like for me? Good question! I feel like I’m juggling many things right now. I feel like God may want me to go to Pennsylvania and work at a camp and I’m still praying about that. I also feel a calling to missions in the Balkans area, possibly Bulgaria. I’m also praying about a program called CGA after the race in Georgia and wondering if that’s what God wants me to do. I have all these ideas but I’m letting God take them and then tell me which one I need to do first. Prayer is a big key in all of this. I know that an answer to all these questions is not an overnight thing, but it’s going to take awhile. Please keep me in your prayers! Listen to what God has to say about you!
In Christ, Nik Yoder
