hey hi hello!
i’m stillll in georgia, although no longer living in a tent! praise God for that :,)
this morning i’m sitting in squad lead church, this week it’s being lead by the men’s team- ecclesia. we’re all sitting in our small squad meeting point that doubles as our bedroom that also doubles as our laundry hanging space- hahaha. as i’m sitting here my gaze rests upon every face in the room, faces of racers & of my fellow leaders. my heart feels especially warm. i’m thinking about how there’s just a week left until we all part ways for thanksgiving break, & after our break there’s only two weeks until we part for christmas break, and for me & the other alumni team leaders we part ways with gap c for the last time. i titled this blog the way that i did because i really do feel like i need someone to pinch me. this semester it has been a challenge at times to choose joy. when your laundry doesn’t dry in the humid weather, and you’re eating the same meals, and the squad meeting point gets a little stinky, and you can’t have the freedom to go into town on the weekends due to covid, sometimes i convinced myself that there wasn’t any joy to be seen. in those moments i was the MOST wrong. i’m sitting here thinking about the breakthroughs, both big and little. about the inside jokes. about vulnerability. about the growth. about the discipleship. about all the ways that Holy Spirit has met us in this place. this whole time there has actually been constant joy because it’s not about laundry or food or freedom, it’s because of Abba. so someone pinch me, because it feels unreal being in this season unlike any other.
thank you Father that it’s not over yet. that there’s still more that you want to use me to give. thank you for every moment, even for the ones that seem mundane and monotonous. forgive me for the times that i’ve chosen to just want to make it through the day over choosing to experience your fullness. you’re so kind to gift me & all of us with this lovely & beautiful season. thank you Father. thank you thank you thank you.
thanks for reading all, i hope you see the joy in your season right now too.
with love, nikki
