At the beginning of summer God told me that this year was going to be a year of redemption and then at Training Camp I was told that God wanted to right every wrong in my life over this next year. I wasn’t sure how all this would look, but I liked the sound of it. I should have known that this would start from day one!
I remember like it was yesterday. It was my sophomore year of high school and my best friend Ryan and I had been fighting for over a month. I was definitely the meanest I had ever been in my life… in fact, I was so mean to him, that Ryan actually transferred out of the class we had together. Well, one night the high school football game was cancelled due to an unexpected storm, so all of us in band were rushed onto the buses for safety. Ryan and I ended up on the same bus and something told me to go apologize to him. But I ignored it and out of my selfish pride I didn’t tell him I was sorry.
That day was October 3, 1997… a day whose guilt and regret was a constant torment that literally tore my world apart. You see, I never did get another chance to tell Ryan I was sorry because he unexpectedly died the next day. And ever since then I desperately wanted to be able to take it all back… to change this day and what it meant in my life.
Thirteen years later I’m finally getting the redemption I’ve longed for all this time. This past year God has finally brought freedom and healing into my life in this area to where I was finally able to let go. But God just didn’t let it stop there. Today, October 3, 2010, is the first day of the year that’s destined to change my life forever…
My squad flew out of LA at 1:30 this morning, had an hour layover in El Salvador, and hit Guatemala City a little after 9am. We then loaded up in a van/ bus and drove to Antigua where we reunited with the leadership of our squad. We’ve spent the day just hanging out and walking around the city… over the next couple of days we’ll be doing some worship and teaching sessions as well as having an “adventure” day. I love it here already and can’t believe this is going to be my life for the next year!
