Change has been my new best friend. Everything has been changing or is in the process of changing. Im changing and people around me are changing. I’ll admit i try to resist it but it always finds a way. I can’t make time stand still. I’ve been thinking about this past year and the differant things that have happened. My Palpa passing was one of the most difficult. Id even venture to say it still is a struggle everyday to know i can’t talk to him like i use to. But i can’t stay in that moment, things still move forward. God still works and moves. And not despite our mess but through our mess. I got a new car. And though i struggled with selling my old one, it was necessary to move forward. Giving up my old car meant letting go of the past and walking into the future. Letting go of what i can’t control. My brother had a baby boy! Now he’s responsible for a life…crazy! Im an aunt….whoa dang! We are all responsible for how this kid grows up. For what he’s exposed to, what he learns, and eventually who he becomes. My two roomates moved out. Though they moved out of the house, they didn’t move out of my life. Their lives have changed and are moving forward. Though i wish we could have just stayed here together, that wouldn’t have been fair to them, to me, or to you the world. Bravo is growing so fast and learning so much! Ellie my other equine friend left the herd. As much as i wanted her to stay, she is best where she is. She’s getting pushed and forced to step out of what she wants to do, which for Ellie is nothing more than eating and standing and forceing you to scratch her. I know where she is is better. So life still moves forward…
I woke up this morning to the sound of geese flying in. Many times i wish they’d be quiet and not wake me so early. Other times its sweet music to my ears. That sound reminds me of growing up. There were many sunrises and sunsets with my Palpa and brother and granny that we’d watch the geese fly in for the day/night. They were a mess. They never cleaned up after themselves! I always wondered if they were the same ones day in and day out. Ive recently learned that most likely the same geese follow the same flight migration. There are 29 or more differant species of geese spreading across the globe! Contrary to what ive thought most of my life, geese are pretty smart animals. They follow almost exactly the same migration route every time, only being off by a couple of degrees. They use the stars at night to guide them and the sun during the day. Weather is no hinderance for them; no matter what they fly. What i find so neat about these birds is they stay together. As a unit they fly together. Then when they mate and have babies those babies go off to form their own families. After learning these facts I couldn’t help but think about the Race. That though home and people here will always be apart of me and my life; its migrating season. Its time for me to go off and form new friends and family. And not to replace what i already have but to have a new one, to move forward as the Kingdom moves forward. Ive been wrestling for awhile now with my emotions towrards the race. Today i can say im excited. With all my heart, no holding back…im excited! Off with the baby feathers and on with the adult feathers.(thats what it feels like anyways!)
So change is good and though we resist…we should EMBRACE.
“He/She is NO FOOL who gives up what they cannot keep to GAIN what they cannot Loose.”
