Compelled. Prayer. Alive. Rejoice. Chosen.
Dearly Loved
Those were a few of the words that God woke me up with at 3:00 AM. I cannot explain it but I know God is doing something CRAZY within me. Within my heart. It is a feeling. It is an emotion. It is simple truth. God has waken me up in the wee hours of morning before, simply to praise Him. TO dive into the Word and just simply pray. As I leaned over the side of my bed to grab my bible- I knew God was about to show me more of who HE is. He is simply awesome like that.
1 Peter 3:19 reads
"After being made alive, he went and made proclamation to the imprisoned spirits—"
Honestly, I am not sure why this specific verse reference was in my head when I woke up and as I flipped to it and read it, I am still wondering. Is God making me 'alive' in a way that I have not been before? Is He preparing my heart for something great? What sort of power, is He waiting/wanting to perform through me? What sort of healing (either within me or through me) is He going to do?
I know the days leading up to launch are literally less then a month away. My feelings and emotions are 'all over the map'. On the 'everything but North America, side' of the map, I am BEYOND ready to go-to get out of my comfort zone and to be in situations where I have no choice but to fully lean on God. Yet specifically on the 'Canadian' side of the map, I will really miss my life here. My friends. My family. The youth I've been working with over the last few years and my church community.
I know the World Race will be (has been) a life changer for me. Yes I have done mission trips before. Yes this is NOT the first time I have gone international. Yet I cannot help but feel that this trip, this specific missions trip to these specific countries, with this particular team and squad of people- will (has) forever change (changed) my life. God is stirring something within me. He is preparing my heart and soul for something great and perhaps, in the process, it is an 'imprisoned spirit' within me that is finally being set free.
I WILL see the dead arise. The lame walk. The blind see again.
Am I crazy?
Have I 'officially gone off the deep end?'
Perhaps
But… God is still VERY much in the process of performing miracles- He is NOT dead.
In fact…
God is alive.
God is VERY ALIVE.
and
I do not know what this next year of adventure will look like but I have a feeling that it will involve, heartache, healing, forgiveness, miracles, passion, community, truth and love that ONLY comes from Our Father God above.
