"hey God,
Father I am worried that with this Christmas season right around the corner, that I will forget what You showed me in Zambia. God, I am worried that I will get 'caught up' in the materialism of the holidays, when ultimately-Christmas isnt about what we get..but its about YOU. Its about YOUR birth…what YOU gave to US when you came down in the form of a man and walked this earth. Help me to only speak truth and love this holiday season when I have moments where I'd rather speak hate and ugliness. Help me to realize that people have not seen or done, what I have. Help me to SHOW them through stories, pictures and words. I pray for Your truth to be on my lips always.
God, I pray that you will continually soften my heart and ever day, break it for what breaks Yours. I know that my trip to Zambia, prepared me in ways that I do not even know yet, for my time coming up on the WORLD RACE. God, through my team leader/founder of Seeds of Hope, You used her to mentor me to be a better leader. You used her to bless and encourage me when I needed it the most. The truth that was spoken into my life, through her, I will never fully understand. I thank you so much for the time I could learn from her and be blessed by her. Father, I pray that I too, will be able to help lead, guide and bless fellow squad mates on the race-both prior to going and while we are on it. You call us to encourage one another daily and I pray that I can and will. I pray that, as a team, we will lean on each other and especially on YOU God to get us through each and every day. I pray for a unity within our group, that when complete strangers walk by us, they will know that we are serving You, that the people will see a passion in our eyes that comes from You alone.
God, help me to serve with my whole heart. Humble me. Help me to see You in situations when it is extremely hard to. Open my eyes God, as blind as I am, I beg you to open my eyes and heart to see Your kingdom. God, I know You are ALIVE and moving. There is too much GOOD in this world to believe anything else. Father, when I feel like I am 'not good enough' or 'feeling worthless'-I beg you to pick me up, to help me to remember that I AM YOUR DAUGHTER. I am the daughter of the KING. There is SO MUCH POWER in Your name. Help me to call on Your power in the bad times, along with the good times. I believe in something waaaaaaaaaaay beyond myself.
Father, help me to forgive. It is by no means easy. I beg you to help me forgive little Nikki's uncle as You know the hate in my heart towards that man, is so so great….heal my heart God, help me to realize that he too, is a child of yours and is just lost right now. Put people in his life who are Godly men and, as hard as it is to pray this, I pray that I will someday meet him in Heaven and do nothing but embrace him in a loving hug and welcome him to the family of God. Lord, that is my prayer. I know you can do it. I know you can and will, change my heart. Maybe not today, or tomorrow..but someday soon, I know you will. Help me forgive those around me, who have wronged me. I pray that through my act of obedience to You, that they will see you in a new way. Being bitter is not fun at all, so I pray that you replace that bitterness with TRUTH, PEACE, JOY and LOVE. Thank you.
Dad, this journey of following You is one crazy ride. I often do not know how to feel or act but what I do know, is that with You leading me, its going to be wild, its going to be great and its going to be FULL of YOU. I can not thank you and praise you ENOUGH for that. Dad, your love for me (us) is amazing and I can feel it right here, right now. Thank you so so so very much!
Love, Your precious Daughter,
Nikki
Holding the Hand of God in Zambia
