Wow! Wow! WOW!!!
It has been soooo long since I wrote a blog!
So sorry to keep y’all waiting!
Let’s just start from the beginning of this month! We made it to Thailand and we had a debrief!
Debrief is when our leadership team from the USA comes out to the country we are in and have a bunch of sessions and debriefs about what has been going on! It is seriously a blast every single time!
This debrief was no different…except for one little topic.
The future.
Ughhhh! I don’t wanna talk about THAT!
I don’t know what I want to do when the race is over. I don’t want to focus on it. I just want to stay present.
Welllll it’s just about the ONLY thing I can think about this month!
I’m getting people messaging me with new teaching jobs and a bunch of my squad mates are talking about doing some of the amazing discipleship programs through Adventures in Missions and leadership is talking about leading trips. And then the Lord reminded me of a dream I have to open a daycare.
HOW DO I CHOOSE!?!?
I don’t wanna limit myself and I don’t want to do anything that will not push me even further into the Lords arms. So how do I choose?
Something my squad mentor told us when we started talking about dreams and the future was that God has us on this very narrow path but that now He is trusting us more and more to choose what we get to do. So now our path is a huge open field and we can decide if we want to play in the meadow of flowers or splash around in the creek or sit underneath the huge oak tree and none of them are wrong and He will bless them all.
So God has given me a choice…I have free will to choose whatever I want to do.
I don’t feel ready.
I feel scared and vulnerable.
So now you see why I haven’t wrote a blog…because my brain has been flooded with ALLLL that.
This blog doesn’t have a pretty little bow to tie it off at the end. I’m just being honest with y’all.
I don’t know what the future holds but I know who holds my future.
If and when you ask me what I’m going to do when I get back from the world race I might say that I don’t know yet…which is the truth, but know that I am not ignoring the question. I very much appreciate you keeping up with my journey and wanting to keep up with me after my journey but right now…I’m going to box up the future and place it to the side. I will open it up from time to time in the next few months but for the most part I’m going to be soaking in allll the beauty and wonder and amazement around me here.
Love you guys!
Blessings,
Niki
