Wait what? If your a family member you’re probably thinking “oh no they starved you that much, what’s gonna happen when you’re actually on the trip? If you’re a future racer and still considering applying to the World Race, you’re thoughts are probably going a million miles a minute and want to pack all the snacks for training camp. And if you experienced training camp with me, or are a current or alumni racer, you know what weight I’m talking about. The weight that I lost is not physical (which I did lose some) but emotional weight, pain, hurt, things not of God.
Before training camp started, I prayed that God would break me, wreck me, and make me whole again. And He did just that. Honestly I don’t even know how to explain training camp to you. It’s something you have to experience to fully understand.
So yeah, I’m gonna be real with you, emotional weight, it’s a thing, you can’t avoid it. We all have it. There may be stuff from your past or currently that you may not even realize is weighing you down. A pain, hurt, shame, or negative feelings that you have that are not of God. An exercise we did at camp, was writing down significant moments in our life, whether is was something someone said, did, or an event that happened in your life that changed you for the better or the worse. We then thought about it, prayed about it, and then processed on how we’ve grown from it. It’s crazy how your life is defined from negative moments or pain. How we handle our pain and hurt is what really matters.
Some of our pain includes unforgiveness and bitterness towards someone. There are many times in our lives when we have it. If we hold onto that unforgiveness and pain, we become bitter and not of God. When we don’t forgive we deny that person/people or ourselves the love of God and His forgiveness. Luke 6:28 says “bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you.” When we forgive, it doesn’t mean we forget, but we can become full of Christ and not full of unforgiveness, bitter, etc.
Back to the weight I lost. One night at worship I felt God say to me, write it down. Write a letter and forgive them, and yourself, so I did. After I wrote my letter. I felt great. I no longer felt angry, upset, or bitter about what had happen in my past. But that wasn’t even the best part. After I wrote the letter, our speaker talked about unforgiveness, and shared a similar story to what I wrote my letter about. God definitely was speaking through him.
Confession: I wrote this post at 4am on Day 6 of training camp. (ask me about why I’m up at this time). But my prayer this early morning is that God would open your hearts and help you to let go of the things not our Him. And release those pains, guilt, shame, unforgiveness and whatever is holding you back from being full with God.
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