Hi hi!
Last time we talked, I had it all figured out but God sometimes likes to flip the plans we created for ourselves and do a 180 so here we are.
I will not be going to London with YWAM for a Marketing Internship anymore. Why?
I needed to prioritize my mental and physical health first. I am so excited to start counseling so I can process this year, spend time with family, start my Master’s degree earlier, figure out what I actually want to do career-wise and where I want to live and heal my mindset.
I had a realization and it was I had a bad relationship with food and how I looked. I struggled when I felt guilt or had a lack of control, and I felt both those things this year. It wasn’t until Month 9 that I realized, I wanted to communicate this so I can move past it. I have been struggling for years, probably since Junior year of high school. The thoughts I had were not normal so I decided I wanted to go home and focus on healing and self-growth!
That was a vulnerable moment but not going to lie when I talk about it, it helps me feel better about it. Like it is not a dirty little secret I have anymore. Anyways, maybe we can rethink London one day but for right now, I need to be home and I am excited about it. I feel content. I don’t feel rushed. God is good. That is all.
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