To the seven weddings that will be missed, the graduation of my closest friends, the movies I cannot look forward to, and the year of changes I won’t discover until I’m home…
The birthdays, the anniversaries, the seasons, the holidays, the parties, kickbacks, concerts, and to the marriage I thought I would have…
2019 will be the year of growth. I’ll be growing in a different way now though.
In 2019, I planned on getting married to my best friend and moving to a new state after I graduated from college. I planned on being a wife and was looking for the 9-5 jobs in his area. It wasn’t that I hated the path I was going down, I just was not ready to let go of the other options.
Even though that was not God’s overall plan for me, it felt nice to be comfortable in my future. God doesn’t call us to be comfortable. Applying for the world race was the craziest and most “she won’t actually go through with it” decision I have ever made but here I am. #Catchmein2020
Many people are surprised that I know every country I am going to and the exact month I will be there. I literally answer the question, “Where are you going?” every day. Sometimes I love talking about it but sometimes it hurts to know I will be in Africa experiencing my best friend walking down the aisle over face time. I know I am making the right decision by going on the World Race, and I am extremely excited but I think it’s okay to be upset about what I will miss.
To all my friends, family, and people I care for; I hope you know how much I love you. I hope you know how sad I am about missing these huge points in your life. I also hope you know that God is calling me to be somewhere else. And I hope you know I am beyond happy through all the anxiety.
Please don’t lose touch while I’m away, I’ll still have my phone and laptop with connection sometimes. Please don’t think I forgot your birthdays or those special days, I will be celebrating you from afar. And please always text me on Monday nights to keep me apart of bachelor nation.
I’m still your biggest fan even from thousands of miles away.
