As our time in Moldova has continued, I realized something that still gets under my skin and ruffles my feathers. It’s month ten of the world race, and I should be over this by now.
But… I am SO easily frustrated that I cannot communicate with everyone!
BAH! I’m such a people person, and it drives me crazy not to have good, or even decent conversations with anyone I meet! I realize this isn’t a desire of everyone’s heart, but it is for me. I love to talk! I love to chat it up with anyone and everyone, and encourage people through words of life and love!
God will b
less me with the occasional person that speaks decent English and we can have a simple conversation, but it’s difficult not to be able to build relationships in that way.
When I see little Moldovan 10 yr old princesses and want to tell them how beautiful they are and talk with them; I want to just do it! When I see a lonely lady sitting on the street corner, on the same bench every day, I want to say more than “hello” in a language that I mess up every time I attempt to speak it!
But, I can’t.
I mean, I can go get our translator (who’s amazing, by the way), and have her translate something, which we do quite often. It’s just difficult and seems to lose it’s luster, you know?
Even with our contacts and the guys we talk to almost every day; it’s difficult to communicate much of anything of substance. I just realized yesterday… after being here two weeks, that our contacts speak Russian and not Moldovan! Here in Moldova, people speak either Russian or Moldovan, and I apparently can’t tell the difference, so learning much of either one in our last six days here is just a joke. God keeps putting so many things on my heart, and half the time I just feel like I sit on them.
I realize this is mostly frustration speaking today, but it’s daily circumstance we have to live through on the world race. Where does this leave me?
· I am going to be SO thankful to return home and talk with anyone at anytime. Wal-Mart greeters are going to get sick of me!
· I need to continue in my hand-motion/ broken language communication, and trust that even in my 2nd hand attempts to get a phrase across, people are encountering the love of God!!
· Love is not just words.
· I need to turn my desire to communicate with people into more communication with God! I need to pray and intercede for people more often. If God puts something on my heart, I need to choose to pray it out, even if I can’t speak it out! Even when I’m out on the soccer field playing hard with the guys and showing them that girls CAN
play soccer (smirk), I can be praying Godly character over them, and that the Spirit of the Lord would come alive in their hearts. I can pray hope into their lives, and joy and purpose!
· It’s easy to get wrapped up in “I’m not doing enough.” Well, let’s be real: this is when God works best. When I can’t do anything; God does everything.
· I’m playing music and playing sports this month: why on earth am I complaining about anything?!?! 😉
Sage has been a great example of living out the Kingdom of God here in Moldova, against all the odds. She’s really great about grabbing our translator to translate a prayer over everyone, or writing out words of encouragement and prophesy for people. She’s been a great example to me to continue to push through and give the people here everything I have; because they’re worth every bit of love. Thanks, Sagey!
