Have you ever wondered why God placed so many different desires into your heart…and what in the world you are suppose to do with those desires??? If you’re anything like me, then you have. I constantly feel like I rack my brain everyday trying to fullfil and search out God’s plan for me.
Now I know God’s plan is so much bigger than anything I could imagine…and that is why he is God. I would however love it if he could be a little clearer in what his plans actually entails for me. I feel like I am doing what God has for me one moment and then the next moment I feel like I am missing a piece of myself. Almost like there is something else I should be doing…something else he is calling me to do…
Can I just start out by saying that I love my job. I work as a radiation therapist…delivering external ionizing radiation to cancer patients. I can honestly say that I look forward each and everyday for my job…because of my patients not the lack of sleep. At times the job can be heartbreaking, but overall I couldn’t ask for a better job. However, no matter how much I love my job I felt that God has been tugging at me and so I searched out what else God wanted me to do…and you will never guess what!!!
– Radiation Therapy…loved my patients so much I wanted to be more involved in their lives…so
– PA School…took a semester of classes and then realized I was’t going to be really involved with their lives, more of a twenty minute appt. giving out test results, doing examinations, etc…so
– Volunteering on the Hospice and Cancer Floors…contacted the volunteering service to see about going up to patients floors…just visiting the patients so they would have someone to talk too…they don’t do that…so I contacted the head nurse and explained what I wanted to do…she was all about it…haven’t been able to contact her in over a month…can I tell you it is rude not to call someone back…so
– World Race…started thinking and praying about the possibility of going on Thursday 3/5…meet with a friend on Friday who told me that everytime she thinks of the world race she thinks of me…i didn’t even tell her I was thinking about it…Saturday read blogs and watched videos on the website…did a little crying…filled out the application…just so happened the references I needed happened to be at that same Starbucks…following Thursday 3/12 did my interview for the world race…was accepted on Tuesday 3/17
It has been amazing how God has been placing these different desires into my heart that has eventually lead me to this place in my life…and I don’t know if I would have ever gotten here if I didn’t attempt to step out on a limb and begin to fulfill the desires that God has placed on my heart. Sometimes the scariest thing in life is to place that one foot in front of the other…to step out into the water.
