We had our month 8 debrief this past week in Antigua, Guatemala. The last night before we left for our ministry site we had an amazing night of worship. It was incredible. I was not into it…at first.
As we were singing and praising I was super apathetic, I just wanted to sit down and rest to be honest. Pathetic right? But its how I felt. Then, as is World Race style, we asked if anyone wanted prayer, if anyone was sick or hurt, lets heal some people!
Again I was apathetic. I just wanted to sit down, or better yet, sleep.
As we were praying over the people in the middle an internal battle was going through me. I know that God is my Lord, I know that I want to see healings, but my excuse is that I am tired; that is crap, something else is going on. I could feel it down in my heart, in my soul. There was a battle raging.
I can’t explain it very well, but I could feel a wall up, a wall that the enemy desperately didn’t want me to push and break through. I think that many of us have felt this and succumbed to defeat. The wall that says this is weird, the wall that says people will look at me, the wall that says these people are NUTS.
Have you read the Bible?
The Bible is NUTS. The visions and the healings that take place, and how they take place is crazy. It isn’t normal, and it doesn’t make sense. And guess what, the Bible tells us that we will do even greater things than these! John 14:12.
While thinking through all this I made a decision. It was worth it to be crazy to access the abundant life and freedom that God promises us (Romans 8). I started yelling, loud, like really loud. I’m through caring what people think, what I think, it’s not about any of that. It’s about wanting more from Christ because that’s what He promised.
We go to church on Sunday and maybe a bible study during the week and we get told that healings are possible, that the Spirit will work through us, then why aren’t we doing it?
I’ll tell you why, BECAUSE WE ARENT DOING IT. Jesus says that for “freedom’s sake He set us free” that means we have a choice. I challenge you to choose Him again. Choose Him not just for eternal life, but for abundant life on earth too. I challenge you to choose Him when you’re at the grocery store and the cashier looks sad, tell them about Jesus, why not?
We have a choice in this, that’s why love is possible because we have a choice. So get riled up, get excited, and through your reservations aside. Pray over someone at the store, tell your co-worker about Jesus, try something!
That night of worship I broke something inside of me and the Spirit overwhelmed me. God spoke to me in a way I have never experienced. I was able to speak directly to some of my squad mates reservations and fears even though I had no idea what they were, because God speaks to us.
I’ll leave you with this last thought, and really this last responsibility. God tells Ezekiel to go to a house and pray for this dead child, and then God heals the child. Does God need Ezekiel to heal that child? No. But why did He not only tell him to go there, but also tell Him to ask Him to raise this child from the dead? God wants to use you, He wants you to experience Him and be apart of the amazing things He does. There are times where if you don’t pray something amazing isn’t happening! Step it up, I dare you!!
