I realize that the last few blogs I have posted haven’t seemed indicative to the persona I have projected thus far on the Race. I would like to briefly address that. I might be going a little crazy……Probably not, but it’s possible. Actually, God has been revealing and teaching me more about my insecurities. In particular, he’s been convicting about shying away from the gifts and talents he’s given me. When I see others around me that are really good at the things that I can kinda do, I don’t make the effort to do them and look bad. Sounds silly I know, but I’ve never claimed to be anything but ridiculous. So God is not letting me sit still and since one of the things I’m kinda good at is expressing myself and how I’m feeling, I’ve been writing a lot. Seriously, this is my third blog in less than 24 hours, and the first two were each the longest blogs I have written on the race. So I’m not the best at something, oh well. My grammar and spelling would likely be considered an abomination and my ADD has me switching topics randomly. I really like chapati, by the way, if you ever come to Kenya you should eat lots of it. I’d describe it as a heaven in the shape of a circle, meant to go in your belly.
See, none of those things matter. God has shown me that no matter who told me I sucked at guitar when I was younger or I would never be able to type out a paper correctly, he’s telling me to do it. To use my voice and talents no matter how lacking I may think that they are. He’s going to work through them. Through all the randomness and ADD…..(ness?) He’s making his Kingdom better. So I’m gonna say what I feel that I should, unless its totally redic, and obey what God tells me to do.
Nick
