Before I start this shindig I’d like to offer a quick apology and explanation. I did a poor job of blogging the last half of my Race. I honestly could not figure out what to say. I ran into a wall… and each possible blog to write seemed like Mt. Everest as opposed to earlier in the Race when they seemed like mere ant hills to quickly write and hop over. I also wanted to be present in the ministry I was doing at “ministry”, with my team, and with the camera. I can honestly say I worked extremely hard the last 6 months and when I had free time blogging was one of the last things I wanted to do because it felt like more work.
Alright, now to the good stuff…
God and I have been communicating pretty well and pretty clearly for most of the Race, but the last few months have been exceptional, even in the little things God speaks and then confirms that it is in fact Him. So without further adieu, here is a conversation I had with God sitting in church the day after I returned to the good ole U.S. of A.
ME: Why am I not breaking down at all this money/comfort?
Did I miss something?
GOD: No. You didn’t. You’re exhausted right now, but you’re also living in the moment, MY moment, as a Rock, a Light. Your circumstances may change, they might get better, they might get worse, but you’ve had that all year and I’ve called you to continue to be yourself, be ME, everywhere you go, with everyone you meet. You know who you are; you know who I am; you know how to live, how to live with my Spirit inside of you with all His power and boldness… go live it. Enjoy the blessings I give you in every moment, embrace the hardship, continue to become more like me, and always live out the Spirit I have given you and the strength, boldness, Rock, and Light that is inside of you.
(My thoughts/commentary) In the moment I didn’t want or even know that which I didn’t have… like my shoes. I knew they were dirty and worn but until I put on a newer pair when I got home I didn’t know the comfort I was missing. I’ve seen a lot but I can’t dwell on the hardship others live in; I can pray for them and use my remembering their hardship to intercede for them, pray for them, and think about them, but at the end of the day I’m no longer there and I can’t help every person I’ve met. It’s a hard lesson, a tough pill to swallow, but it still rings true. I can only help those who are in front of me and whom God intentionally calls me to help out of the many people I know who need God’s love. It’s not my job to love everyone, but to love anyone. I need to love all that I can and love as many as I can but Jesus only had significant time for 12 and then love for the 1000s within the crowds He ministered to. He didn’t reach the whole world in His humanity; it’s not my job either. Rather Jesus had love and compassion on those in front of Him and that’s what He has called me to as well. And in that Jesus transformed the world, because He changed the world of the people in front of Him and He called them (and us) to do the same.
