Have you ever been afraid to step into something new because of fear?
Or maybe you feel like or think “I wouldn’t be good at this anyways, so why would I go for it?”
Ever since I was little I’ve always love to sing. Music is something I can’t imagine living without.
My mom grew up singing and playing piano and my sister can pretty much pick up any instrument and play it. Music just runs through our existence.
But for me, it’s easy to fall into anxieties that arise when singing. Although I love it I’ve always though goodness, what if I mess up or make a mistake?
Fear sets in. Interestingly enough, 4 days ago I was taught a few chords on ukulele from one of my teammates.
Little did I know, I’d actually be asked to lead worship with others for Easter Sunday and would be playing the ukulele.
WHAT?!
“I’m so nervous to do this”
“I don’t know what I’m doing”
“I’m not very good at this”
“I’m afraid I’m going to mess up”
Were thoughts that resided in my mind. Due to the fact that I literally just learned the ukulele 4 days ago and was still trying to figure it all out.
But God.
As my entire squad gathered for worship and a message today, I thought my heart was going to beat out of my chest because of fear of messing up.
BUT in mid worship my heart was arrested.
Arrested on a rooftop of a hostel in Cambodia. It was as if my heart was racing but then just slowed down or stopped beating as fast… why?
Because in the middle of the song called “resurrecting,” I realized that sitting all around me were my teammates singing out:
Your name
Your name
Is victory
All praise
Will rise
To Christ our king
By your spirit I will rise from the ashes of defeat
The resurrected king
Is resurrecting me
I realized with Jesus there is victory.
Victory over fear, doubt or worries.
Victory to walk in obedience with something new and make mistakes but grow from them.
Victory to claim that because He rose again, so can we.
Even in the midst of my fear Jesus casts out that fear because He claimed victory over that. The same goes for you.
What new thing might God be calling you into?
That thing that maybe you’re afraid of.
That thing that makes your heart beat a thousand miles.
Together, let’s walk in choosing faith over our fears. Let’s allow our hearts to be arrested in awe of Jesus and His victory.
