As I sit here, trying to recap an entire month of things that have happened, I am in complete awe and wonder of all the things that God has done this month. I don’t even know how to fathom it. This month I faced heartbreak, struggle, pain, but it all ended with love. A love that a father can only have for His son and that the son could only receive from His father. I watched a love between two people who were meant for each other from the time they were born. This month I cried, laughed, danced, imagined, dreamed, and created. I faced mountains that were far too big for me to climb on my own so I had to ask someone much stronger than me to come help and climb. And as I sit here trying to think of a word to sum up what just happened this month all I can think of is this…
T R A N S I T I O N
– the process or a period of changing from one state or condition to another. –
The month of April began with an answer to prayer of seeing the holy spirit invade a place I never thought he could. He came in and gave me so much joy allowing me to use my gift to a group of people who had never seen it. But from there is where the heartbreak came…
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Papa looked at me right when I was using my gift in a place where I had new friends and new possibilities and said.
“It’s time to transition, I need you to walk away from this place and enter into the next season.”
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I was heartbroken. I just made all these friends and just experienced the outpouring of the holy spirit in a miraculous way and now it’s time to leave!? WHAT?! I couldn’t there was no way. I wrestled with this idea for the whole month. How can I obey God when He’s asking me to leave this great thing? But then the end of April came..
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I gave up my rights to the situation right at the end of april. I told God that if He wanted to do something then I was with Him no matter how hard I wanted to stay in my season I knew I couldn’t. and then He brought me to the beginning of May. To my sister’s wedding..
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This overwhelming amount of beauty to watch two people decide to dance with Papa together for the rest of their lives was unimaginably beautiful. To feel my Papa’s smile on the situation was incredible. I said at one point to God, “I get to experience this? Like I get to just sit here in the moment and savor this celebration?!” I cried at the beauty of the moment and the understanding that I couldn’t have walked out into this next season until I said goodbye to the old season.
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When reflecting on the past season of my life I was asked to make a portrait of what this past season was like. I sat there in complete confusion at what I was supposed to make and then, The Lord told me to paint a feather.
F E A T H E R
I never knew the amount I loved feathers until I painted one and the Lord began to speak to me about them.
“Nathan, no feather is exactly the same. And birds must remove their old feathers so that they can make room for new feathers. You can’t mess up a feather, because no feather is exactly the same.”
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My seasons will never be the exact same. He never makes anything the exact same. But my seasons will all be beautiful to Him and they will always transition just like feathers.
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If you are reading this. CONGRATS! You made it through my entire Blog and are still reading and for that, I wanna say thank you! I am almost at $6,000 in fundraising and I only $10,000 to launch in september! (Thank you, Jesus!!) Now, this may seem like a high mountain to climb but it really isn’t to Papa. If you feel touched or encouraged by this blog that’s AWESOME! and I’m so glad you read it. Please be praying for me in my attempt to glorify my friend Jesus through words (In this blog) and through action (on the race)
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Thank you to all who donated already and those who continue to pray for me! With love, Nathan.
