Walls
~ A structure used to protect the people on the inside. ~
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One night during worship with our squad one of our leaders got up and said that he felt that people had walls up in their own hearts and that the Lord wanted to tear those walls down. I immediately said in my mind “I don’t have walls! The Lord knows that and knows that He has rights to anything in my heart.” At that moment the Lord whispered to me.
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“Then take down the walls to your anger.”
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Oh no. Not this again. (if you read my last blog you may know that the holy spirit is really interested in my anger.) “I really don’t think that’s a good idea, Jesus, I mean, anger is unpredictable!”
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“Do you trust me?”
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Welp, He caught me again. Once again, I’m at a loss of words seeing that my faith isn’t even strong enough to let my emotions out. I’ve never thought I had a problem with letting my emotions out till I got on the race and now look where we are. Sitting here terrified of the unknown…
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The Lord desires our hearts, that’s for sure. And He will stop at nothing to get to them. He’ll even destroy and tear down our walls if He can get to our hearts.
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Papa, you have my walls.
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“I thought you’d never ask.”
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I’m still terrified of what it may look like to be emotionally vulnerable, but now I’m ready to see what that could look like. I’m ready to walk the path of the unknown in an attempt to be closer with the Lord. For true connection. For true Intimacy. And for that, the path is worth walking. It’s worth the pain, the brokenness, the tears. Because after all. He’s worth it.
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He’s worth it.
