I tend to be self-centered. I started out the race with 300 hits on a blog, slowing working up to 500-600+ on a couple. My flesh says, “not to shabby. That’s a lot of people reading this thing. I must be doing something right…right?â€� Then I think, well Logan Kaynes (another racer), got like 1,000+ people reading her blog testimony. My next though is “well yeah, but it’s Logan, that’s not even fair, Her testimony has drug use and crazy stuff like that in it, my story only has a couple cancer jokes in it dating back from when i was a pre-teen. Why did I even look at how many hits my last blogs got? Why do I feel the need to compare? I think many people write blogs, books, or whatever because they want people to like their work. I’m not much different. I try to be honest though. Sometimes I just want people to laugh; sometimes I blog to remember my own story; and sometimes I blog because I desperately want people to feel the love of Christ coming off of their computer screens and into their homes. It’s a hard balance. I love that people like my blog. I love that people still read this thing 8 months later. The self-centered part of me likes the comments. The numbers next to blog hits. And then I think. “Ya know what Nathan? Maybe its better there are less. Maybe 100+ hits on a blog is better for me than +10,000.â€� Pride blows. I don’t want to write this thing to lift myself up. Now I’m sure it’s happened before, but I want to be made less so that Christ can be made more. Anyways, I just wanted to say thank you in this blog. Thank you for following my journey because you are huge part in it. Thank you for your comments. Thank you for the encouragement. Thank you for the prayers…and I mean that. Thank you for the financial support. $14,300 is a lot to raise. The Lord used you to bless me. You have made an impact on me.
I write this blog thing. Some people read it. It doesn’t have the following of Donald Miller’s tweets, but hey it’s a blog. However, I just found myself looking at the total number of people reading each blog. Why would I do that?
It’s a lesson I don’t excel in, but I’m learning.
