I like to say that I don’t hear well from the Lord. I get
frustrated when we do “happy’s and crappy’s� (a term coined by an Irish friend
of mine for doing feedback) at the end of the night and people are getting
visions, or are speaking in tongues during worship, or the Lord is putting
specific words on peoples heart to share with each other. When I think of
someone on my team during feedback I don’t necessarily hear God telling me to
give them a verse from John such and such. Maybe I think they have discernment,
so then I will look up wisdom in the concordance and find the one verse that
sounds the most eloquent to share in a group setting.
I get frustrated that I have asked God for crazy encounters,
to make Himself more known to me, but all I can muster up is some scribbles
into a moleskin about who I think God is according to Genesis or Psalms. Is
this making sense to you guys? Basically I want to feel the Spirit in the room
and on my life.
I hear when the Lord won’t let Sydney go to bed at night until she writes
down what the Lord wants to say to me. I hear when the Lord puts someone on my
heart out of nowhere to pray for them. I hear when I feel compelled to stop the
street and talk to Mariana.
The truth is I actually do hear.
I just need to accept it which is hard for me.
I think He is pouring into me.
And quite frankly, it scares me a little.
Phase Two of the Race,
Nathan “not fully ready” Salley
