I made the decision to launch into the World Race with little concept of how I was going to make it work with my job and living situation. Currently I’m isolated in a small community at a ranch 45 mins away from any signs of civilization. I have just enough free time each week in order to catch my breath for another week of work. That doesn’t mean I don’t love serving the people I work and live with, I just find it difficult to find a strategy to work World Race planning into the schedule.
After lots of prayer and scheming, I realized that I was going to have to put all that WR stuff on hold. I believed it was important for me to remain present and faithful to my commitments here at the ranch. I have to assume that if God’s answer to my prayer was indeed “Go” that would require me to trust it would all work out on a timeline that seemed peculiar to me.
All this to say I’m truly overwhelmed by the amount of support I have received without really having time to do any real fundraising thus far. I expected nothing. I felt like Abraham walking up the mountain for a little while, wondering if I was really going to have to sacrifice my son at the top (I don’t actually have any children) But I was honestly a little worried that maybe God was asking me to try something that wasn’t going to work out. Or is this WR thing too big of a sacrifice for me to handle? But steadily and consistently I’ve received support and encouragement just before my breaking point in order to reinforce that I really do think God would have me go. I’ve always been a little confused as to what Jehovah Jireh really means. I’m still not all that clear…. what will God provide and what will He not?
I don’t know. But for now I’m content to just praise Him for provision and rest in the gratefulness I have for the people He’s prompted to support me.
The issue I’ve been having is forgetting to trust that if it is God’s will, it will happen. I don’t know what’s next, but I know that God works for the good of those who love him, because we are called according to His good purposes.
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