I had been waiting for the reply email for about a week………..
Every couple hours I would check
my inbox……………..Nothing.
In fact, I waited until later that night to finally read it.
had asked me:
“If you could do anything – what would
you do next year?”
blurted out this
response –
“I would move back to Colorado Springs and find a way to work
with John Eldridge
I knew it was a silly response because
there were numerous reasons that would never
happen.
But throughout the 2010 World Race, I couldn’t shake it.
up.
When I was 19 years old, a friend started a men’s study on
Eldridge’s book – Wild at Heart.
It was that study and that book that set off the radical transformation that has
taken place in my life these past 7 years.
years during College.
In 2009, God provided an amazing opportunity to meet and talk
with Eldridge at his offices in Colorado Springs for about an hour.
(Detailed in this blog:Meeting John Eldredge)
him.
I had his assistants email address.
finally sat down and wrote THE email.
knew I had to go for it.
I told them I would come on full time, part time, volunteer and be paid anything to nothing – if they
come out and learn from them.
There IT was in my inbox.
My eyes rushed
over the words.
thought it might be.
Ransomed Heart was too small to bring me on. (They are only a staff of about 15)
I can’t say I wasn’t slightly
disappointed. (I had been thinking about it all
year)
happened here.
And what I discovered is there
something worse than NO.
I knew I would have
felt much worse if I would
been too timid or scared to face possible rejection.
And it led
to some good things:
–
– Made it clear that God had a season of living at
home in Illinois in store for me.
– – Clarified the timing of going to the G42 Christian Leadership Academy in Spain in July. (Click HERE
to support me)
Gave me the opportunity to attend a Wild at Heart Boot Camp run by John
Eldridge and his staff once a year in Colorado. (I just went this past week –
possible blogs coming soon!)
I read this quote recently:
more often by timidity than by over-daring. ~David Grayson
Most of us aren’t risking TOO MUCH.
Most of us have insulated our lives in a way that risk, failure and any attempt at what our heart Really dreams has been severely minimized.
passionately pursuing there destiny or lives that have been calculated to
protect against any form or failure?
for IT is much worse than any form
of rejection, failure or detour that we can ever face.
work with Eldridge for me but I have complete peace in knowing I went for it.
will always be intact.
in-between is filled in by my hearts dreams and His timing and will.
I
believe God has set life up in a way where we are meant to pursue
the
desires and dreams of
our heart.
will be a part of that.
Take
risks: if you win, you will be happy; if you lose, you will be
wise. ~Author Unknown
