I lay here in bed staring at the ceiling spinning, knowing that in theory it should not be moving.
This month my ministry is to the men and women of S squad. Being raised up as squad leader, one of my favorite roles, investing in and encouraging teammates, has been yanked out from underneath me. Instead I have a headache, rash, and fever with chills and muscle aches, which has confined me to a bed. The only cure for Dengue fever is to sleep, take tylenol, and drink plenty of fluids to help your body fight off the virus.
I tell the team I am with about the rising frustration growing in me, how sorry I am I cannot fill my role. They respond with genuine words of comfort and truth. They remind me that God can use me in any situation and just being present is a part of His call. I hear and understand, but lack belief. I feel as if I must do.
As I lay in this bed in the middle of the night I am thinking, why now?
“Why when I only have a week to pour into these people would you allow me to be stuck here cocooned in this airplane comforter?”
“Please take this away God?”
“Let me be useful!”
Thats when it happens. A joy, a peace, a song springs up in my heart.
“I want to praise you Lord!”
I lay here in bed staring at the ceiling spinning, knowing that in theory it should not be moving. Singing a joyful noise to the Lord.
His greatness and power wash over me and the only response is PRAISE!
Then names start coming to mind and I begin to pray for
family,
friends,
my squad,
team leaders,
squad leaders,
acquaintances,
people past and present.
I cant stop rejoicing and praying there is too much to place in Gods hands and not enough time to do it!!!
A night gone by spent worshiping and talking with my Savior.
What role did I ever feel I had to fill? What steps did I have to take? The greatest role I could ever play is that of a humble servant giving everything into His hands.
That is the only role I wish to play…
How about you?
