Aside from the travel and ministry aspect of our 11 month journey, there is also a personal journey going on in each of our lives. It is starting to sink in that the 4 girls who are on my team are my new family for the next 11 months. It’s taken some time to open up to them because we’ve been getting to know each other, but it’s finally happening. A lot of stuff happened in my life before I left for the world race.. life changing things. Up until June I was engaged and my life was on a completely different path. Although the transition in my life was hard, God had plans for me. It’s hard for me to talk about, but I find it becoming more and more easy to share my story and how God uses hardships in your life to build you up as a person and to draw you closer to Him. I’m finally starting to realize how important these girls are going to be to me this year. They will be there for me in so many different ways. They all know my story, you know, how I got here… why I’m on the World Race… all of the hardships I faced, and the blessings too. It’s been really assuring to know that they will help me, build me up, and back me up through a Godly point of view. It means so much to me that they care enough to hold me accountable to the changes I want to make in myself. They know what God has already done in my life and they are excited to see Him work through me this year. They believe that He is going to break the chains, heal my heart and see me tra
nsformed this year. One of my teammates, Chelsea, said, “God doesn’t need to heal your heart, He needs to break it a little bit every day and fill in the breaks with His love.” It never really made sense to me until now. This team is going to be such a huge blessing to me this year.
I’ll end with an analogy my other teammate Nicole made tonight during group time. Earlier this week while we were at the beach, I wanted to swim out as far as I could go, and I was out pretty far calling back to the beach where everyone else was calling for someone to come out with me because I was scared. There were huge rocks in the water that I had to dodge and I couldn’t see my feet because the water was murky. I got pretty far out, but decided to turn around and come back because I was too scared to keep going. Nicole said maybe this is like my relationship with Jesus. He is calling me to come deeper, to trust Him, but there are obsticles in my way… and I won’t always be able to see where I’m going clearly, but He is waiting. Maybe right now I am too scared to dive in deep into a relationship with Him… and I keep running back to shore for ‘safety.’ I couldn’t agree more. So, this year, I want to abandon all of the things I thought were important and focus on the only thing that is important to me which is my relationship with the Lord. I know I have 4 amazing women, my sisters in Christ, on my side to point me in the right direction and help me stay on track! Love you team Blue Sky!
