It’s a funny thing when you think you know yourself only to realize 33 years into life that you were misinformed. Ok, not exactly misinformed, but instead, misguided in your thoughts. And it wasn’t just that I was misguided, but that I believed what the enemy wanted me to believe: that I am not a leader, I have no voice, and the best thing to do is mold into the crowd. For those who have known me a long time, you know what I mean. I used to be the one who would pray I wouldn’t be called on in class, I would never choose to be the center of attention and I would always prefer to go unnoticed. Huh.
I wouldn’t say I have completely changed in this regard as I still tend to back away from the spotlight, but I will say I now know the Lord has created me to be a leader and He has been nothing but patient as He waited for me to actually believe it. Yes, it has been a transformation in a way, but it has also been an AWAKENING. I have seen the lies fall off and the Truth be revealed. He has told me, “by golly, you do have a voice because I gave you one!” (Ok, I don’t know that the Lord actually said ‘by golly’ but He could if He wants to). 🙂
I have to remind myself every day of what He calls me and how He defines me: as His precious, beloved daughter who has a purpose to fully know Love and to take Him to the world. At the same time, I have to fight the lies that the enemy wants me to believe in hopes to thrust chaos into the Lord’s plans. I have never felt as alive as I do now, and it’s not because of anything I’ve done or anywhere I’ve gone. It’s because the Lord continues to reveal Himself and His handprint on my life, and the only “label” I have is “His child.” And through His strength, He has created me to lead the vision He is allowing me to steward; to see His love transform lives that are currently trapped in the sex industry. I am defined by Love. You are defined by Love. And Love’s definitions of us are infused with Truth. We just have to believe Him.
