I'm laying in a hammock.
In the middle of Granada, Nicaragua; enjoying the breeze and sunshine.
There's a band playing around the corner, and the sound of laughter coming from a side room.
I've spent the day exploring the local market, meeting the locals, and sipping on the most delicious delicacies the country has to offer . . .
I know what you're thinking:
'Tasha, why are you rubbing this in?!!! It's just cruel!'
Well, have no fear as that's not my intention.
I just want to share where I'm at.
At the end of every two months on the field, we come together as a squad and have what's known amongst our group as Debrief.
It's about four days spent processing the past two months of ministry,
preparing and praying for the next two months of ministry,
and resting.
It's like the eye of the hurricane.
Doing ministry 24/7 is exhausting.
Being broken and molded into the person God is calling you up into is exhausting.
Everything about the race is exhausting.
So we are given a mini break.
A much needed break.
We get to push the pause button.
We get to process.
Thank. God.
I used this debrief to reflect back on the past two months of ministry
and how God has already done such a work in who I am.
Central America has been hard.
God has broken me down to build me back up
and I can say that He has been molding
and transforming the very core of who I am.
Two months ago I was the most impatient, irritable person.
Already I'm a completely different person.
I HATED community.
Now, I'm pretty infactuated with it.
I was so focused on ME and what I wanted and what I needed and how I could make things happen.
But it's not about ME.
It's not about what I want or need or about making things happen.
It's about HIM and what HE wants and needs and how HE will make it happen.
It's about my teammates.
It's about calling them up into the people that God has called them to be.
It's about learning about grace and humility.
It's about my ministry.
It's about HIS calling.
(I wish I could accurately describe the person that I'm becoming.
The person that I love to see in the mirror . . . )
God has taken away my selfishness;
He has rid me of gossip and assumption.
I feel like I'm finally starting to bear fruit in both my life and my ministry.
I feel like God is finally smiling down on me.
I feel like He's proud of the person I'm becoming.
It hasn't been easy. I have had to give up my rights.
I have had to change my perspective, my attitude.
I have had to let go.
I have let go . . . of everything.
And now I'm standing before God,
just letting Him adorn me and mold me.
At this point,
I don't know who God is calling me to be.
But I do know that
I love who I'm becoming. 🙂
Sorry for the ramble.
<3tasha
